No one to talk to

I have no one to talk to. I'm just sitting here alone all weekend. Just me and the dog. I have been texting friends but I don't want to be annoying. I know that they read my text but can't always respond. When what is really want to say is, what is wrong with me....why don't u just wanna talk to me? But that would be a little extreme.

I also interviewed last week for a job back in my home state, about an hour away. I thought it was good timing, since my apartment lease is up in a month and I need to determine whether I want to renew at month-to-month lease or for 7+ months. It's way cheaper if I do the 7 or 15 month lease. But, I don't ant to commit to that since I'm doing a job search. I should hear this week about the job, but I need to renew my lease by tues, if that's what I'm doing. So a month-to-month lease will increase my rent about $490 more per month! It's horrible and I can't stay here long if that's the case. I just don't want to move here in huge same city, and then end up getting a job and having to move, again. It's stupid.

I dont have anyone to talk to. My parents are supportive, but I don't want them to know how much I worry, you know? It's just a lot to deal with...and I feel so alone.

Just thought I'd say hello doggiedo Best wishes...

Can you talk to your parents about superficial things to feel some more support from them? I find that even talking about superficial things makes me feel more supported. Do you have a therapist?

Would that job be in teaching? Would it be a high-value or rewarding job for you? Is it worth taking a risk on your living arrangements? (Feel free to ignore the questions; these are things I'd be asking myself in a similar situation.)

Yes it would be full time academic advising and be a step up in a much bigger university. It's the job I've always wanted to have- more of what I love. The people would be really great people to work with (based on my interactions wih them in the interview). I would also be relocating back where I grew up. Here, I don't have anything but my job. I was married years back and that tied me to the area, but not anymore.

I do have a therapist but I met with her last week and it was more like- I know what I new to do, I know the challenges for me right now, and I know things will change-so I can't let myself get down right now, since it's not gonna be like this forever. She kinda was like, hang in there and let's chat again in two weeks if u can't shake this.

I could talk to my parents a bit more, just to have a connection. But sometimes ifeelabout I let them in too much, and then my mom feels like she has the right to poke her head in on everything. At arms length is best with them, for now.

Man, I'm always staring at my phone hoping for some telepathic brainwaves to hit my friends and say "hey! This girl needs a text right now" haha but that very rarely ever happens. Normally I just give in and start bothering them through text. I usually text a bunch of people since most of them will probably be busy but at least a few responses will keep me entertained for a while. In my case, I just know a lot of people are really forgetful about others when they don't see me on the day to day basis. So I just figure I would send a... helpful reminder :P If I'm annoying they just won't respond until way later so that's fine.

As for the job thing, good luck! I hope you get it It sounds like a great fit! Also, I don't know but there is always an option of subleasing your apartment out in the case that you decide to renew and get the job. It may not be the best option but it definitely is one!

And I totally understand you with my parents. After a major depressive episode now they just... are farrrr too involved. I'm working on the arms length thing too hahaha.

Best of luck! Keep us posted

Hope you getting better now

May be you can write it down, some find it helpful.
Altough you have no one to talk to, at least you have your dog accompany you. You can take him for a walk.

I'm always checking in on the forums Doggie if you ever want to chat just let me know, I don't have any real life friends so this is it for me.

I know that it's not a perfect substitute for real people... But I've found that the people here are really supportive and it helps to just vent and get responses from someone who actually knows what you're talking about. If you ever need to chat I'm usually lurking around the boards all day. I hope you get that job! Seems like it would help.

I actually took my dog for a walk yesterday for he first time in a while bc it finally got above freezing - his poor little paws get so cold!

I was thinking of doing a journal but my hand hurts to write. I should look into that. I've been told - well brushed off - that it was nerve pain. But I think it's more a muscle thing. Ugh, I just don't want to have any more medicine. I'm on enough as it is.

I'm literally sitting here at work wondering who to text or talk to. I just want someone to say hi to. I know I can come here but it's harder to do during my work day. Sometimes it's nice I just have a text from someone saying hi or whatever.

No word on the job yet. They said they'll call by this Friday and let me know. The school had two snow days last week, too, so they might be a little behind with he search committee meeting/ decision. I'm feeling pretty hopeless.

I don't even want to go home tonight bc I'm all alone. My dog sleeps in the bedroom all the time anyhow- even when I'm in he living room. So it's not like I even have companionship.

I was wondering, what is your job like? No one interacts with each other? Could you sit next to someone at lunch and try to start a conversation? For me it's hard sometimes to start a conversation without feeling awkward or extremely anxious, but sometimes it's just ease to ask, do you mind if I sit here? And see where it goes. There is noting worse than not trying really. Hang in there, you'll be ok.

I'm sorry to hear you're going through a difficult time. I feel pretty similar. I have a husband and daughter, but still feel alone most of the time. I don't really feel like I have any friends to talk to. My work is online and I sit in front of a computer all day. I'm thinking that maybe if I have a career that feels more rewarding, it might help me too.

It might be good for you to have a change in scenery and your work. I'm glad to hear that your parents are supportive.