[bazzinga1990]

I Had kind of a rollercoaster of emotions the other day but today is different. Today, I worked to fix something i didn't think i could fix on my own, But i did.

What is it? You might ask, well, It was my iPod.
I know what your thinking, Stupid, Right?,
No, It was rather kind of difficult to fix being that the problem was that when i would connect it to my computer it would not respond or read it right. so i formatted it which deletes all the music and stuff i already had on there.
knowing this i thought "hey, i can still get my music back easy cause this would be a simple fix for me to do", I was wrong. This took me a good 2 hours to figure out and fix. Well i found out the problem seemed bigger then what i thought it would actually be. Now, To someone not familiar to computers or technology in general is probably going to say or see things different here. But Because i have some experience and understanding for this particular problem, I was able to work through it and find that it really was not so hard. All that was needed was for me to be patient and believe that i could do it.

In thinking about what happened today, I thought that really this can be like in life, Sometimes we come across a broken piece in our lives that need someone to fix it and when we are able to fix the problem or piece of the problems, it can make us feel good and confident in ourselves. And sometimes we may need a little help to fix the broken pieces to ourselves. But it's that learning to except help, to learn that its not weakness, But its being brave in the fact that we are trusting that person to reach inside us, to understand us, see the damage and help you to fix it, to fix you, to make you whole again.

I know it might seem and sound crazy but i guess i just feel good about myself for being able to fix something complex and confusing.

And i guess i'm feeling sentimental and thinking about stuff like this, Like Maybe i can fix myself and let people in to help fix me too. Maybe it's not such a bad thing to have someone there to help you or me for that matter.

Maybe, Like my iPod, I can be fixed too

[bazzinga1990]

Originally Posted by The Skeezyks

Thank you so much it means alot

[SeekerOfLife]

Bazz, I have noticed this rollar coaster too. My highs are not really highs are not really highs, they are just normal. My lows are pretty close to rock bottom. My average is, well, not average. More like an ongoing struggle. Most of the time all I want to do I sleep. But, other than a little extra of that, I have found it is best to just get up and do what I must. Have a great day, friend. Hugs.

[Frankbtl]

Hi Ashley, , I'd say just what you're said about working on it and fixing it seriously shows how far you're getting. Maybe you can imagine a time previously where it wasn't working and you'd hit a downward slide (one thing on top of everything else?), not seen any real options or any you could do to fix it, and certainly not had that kind of focus to spend the time working through it???? But YOU DID IT!!! AMAZING!!!
And yes, everybody needs help sometimes, to different degrees at different times whatever that help is. And sometimes to be whole, that takes another person/people.
But WOW Ashley, YOU DID IT!!! See there's much more to you than you think!!
Alison

Hi Seekersinking: Wow... you just described me perfectly. I usually say that my mood ranges between: "I just can't stand this for another minute" up to what I term: "dull acceptance". But, whatever my mood, most of the time, I just do whatever has to be done regardless.

[gayleggg]

Originally Posted by The Skeezyks

Hi Seekersinking: Wow... you just described me perfectly. I usually say that my mood ranges between: "I just can't stand this for another minute" up to what I term: "dull acceptance". But, whatever my mood, most of the time, I just do whatever has to be done regardless.

You described me pretty well, too. I hate it because I can remember feeling better than this. I just keep putting one foot in front of the other and as you say, do what has to be done, then go to bed.