make sence?

well here i go agian writing and wondering if things make sence. ( iposted this in social, but only got one response, so I thought maybe i should try here)
I was recently terminated from my internship and was wondering if the following would make sence to include in my binder for the internship.

Summary of Internship

When I fist began my internship I was a bit hesitant to get involved and to do much of the discipline. I think this may have been because of my experience in Independent study. The fact that a supervising teacher had a problem with me, but was “too intimidated” to say something made it hard for me to want to jump in and take control. I was very afraid of stepping on toes and was therefore a bit hesitant when I started my internship. Just as I started to feel comfortable with the classroom and discipline, heath issues got in the way, I did my best to try to keep them at bay and be an active participant in the classroom.
Once I started to feel more comfortable and get more involved in the classroom I felt that the kids really started to connect with me. When I would come in the kids would give me hugs, they wanted to sit by me at meals, wanted me to lay with them at nap, read them books, and play with them. The kids even started to come to me with problems after a while instead of going to Nancy right away. Once things started to stabilize and I started to feel better and was comfortable I was able to put in more consistent hours and I felt like things were going really well. The kids were listening to me and I felt like I was getting a better handle on the discipline in the classroom. The kids really enjoyed building so one of the activities that I brought up from the basement shortly before I left was “No-end blocks”. The kids really enjoyed them and it was amazing to watch their imaginations run wild with them.
I felt I was starting to get into the classroom routines and had gained the respect of the children. They would listen to me and respect what I told them to do. A couple of the kids would always ask me to play with them. Some would even draw me pictures. I really thought that things were going well. Despite mental health issues I was making it thru the days at the center. When illness threatened to knock me out, I took action to try to stop it, and in turn ended up missing being at the center, which in turn ended my internship.
In a lot of ways the kids were my inspiration to keep going. As my internship has come to an end, and I am unhappy with the way things ended I am saddened. The children were inspiring me to continue when everything else in my life seemed hopeless. Their smiles, giggles and even tears were getting me thru day to day. I would look forward to seeing them on a daily basis. Watching them grow and learn and explore has helped me more than anyone will ever know. I really look forward to working with children in the future and hope that when current issues are resolved that I will be able to do so. They were my true inspiration to want more than what I have and to be able to move thru the pain and suffering and current issues that have been a problem for quite some time. Throughout this internship I held out hope that that the issues that had been plaguing me for quite some time would not interfere with my ability to perform my duties as an intern. When it became apparent to me I did everything in my personal power to try to get control of the issues, unfortunately, the help that I needed was out of my control and I was unable to get such help in time to save my internship. Even with things ending as they did I hold out hope that I will someday be able to commit more of my life to children just like the ones in the classroom I was doing my internship.

Just let me know if you think that I am being repetative or if I shoud add anything. I just am really second guessing myself

Dar

What was your internship for? Where you terminated due to the time you miss while treating your mental illness?

My internship was in Early Childhood Education

IN my opinion the internship was terminated due to LACK of treatment fir mental illness. My advisor kept pushing, but i wasn't ready, you can;t get someone help who doesn;t want it if you know what i mean.

Dar

i like the way it reads. i think it is appropriate........xoxoxo pat

I think you have done good work already writing this!

I would now do a rewrite. Take a little more time and refine it? You do have most all of what you need to say in the text, but editing would be best, imo.

Be sure to title it or in the first sentence, some about this being a rebuttal to your termination (dismissal?) or internship for Early Childhood Education. I would also include how long the internship was initially planned to last, and how many weeks or months of that you successfully completed. (Include actual dates if possible, as in 5 years it might or might not be important to whomever is reading it.) If you had any mid point evaluations and what those resulted in (and who they were with, or if you received positive feedback from supervisors or other instructors during the time you were interning.)

If you are countering with a lawsuit or issue about having requested and not being provided as ? allowed by law, mental health care, then yes, I would include that. Otherwise, I would refer to it as "personal health issues" and leave it at that. Everyone has health issues from time to time, and you aren't required to spell them out for others.

Rather than elaborate on the actual activities you performed (and I would keep this info in my own file for future reference) I would state that you created x number of new tasks or activities etc and that the response of the students (ages) was positive, that you made that assessment by the number of pictures and smiles or whatever from/by the students.

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I know that having your internship teminated is upsetting but if you are sueing you might want to address in your paperwork the issue of having mentally ill who refuse treatment taking care of children and teeaching children.

There are many many teachers and child care people out there that for example have depression and other disorders.

I know that I would not want someone near my child that knew they have a mental problem but refuse to get treatment. that puts my child in danger. Just like I put my child into a dangerious situation of seeing me become suicidal because I was not in treatment for my depression.

Do I want my sons teachers and care takers to suddenly because of having a bad day attempt to kill themselves in front of my child, or suddenl;y start sccreaming at their delusiuons and halucinations due to schizophrenia, bipolor disorder, or make eratic decisions because the person is not thinking clearly due to their untreated borderline personality disorder, or like me having untreated DID I was when when my son was home I was living in my la la land and acting out unconscious memories because I got triggered - uncomfortable and upset.

No no one wants their children to go through that type of possible mental and physical neglect and harm due to someone elses untreated mental disorders.

so if you expect to win your case and internship back you are going to need to show how other than treatment you will prevent such mental and physical neglect and harm from coming to the children you as a person with an untrreated mental disorder will be in contact with. and What classes and so on have you taken that will help you to have the appropiate coping tools that will prevent any mental and physical harm coming to the children due to your refusal for treatment options kind of thing.

This isn't a legal or court case. I am turning this letter into my advisor/instructor with the required assignments with hopes of something better than a D for a grade.
I understand that I do not need to spell out that it was menatl health issues, but at the same time I do because of past history.
I think now that it has had some time to sit I might look at it agian and try to revise it some.
I understand peoples concern about my health affecting my "work," but that is what really angers me right now. I told my advisor a week before my termination that I was seeking help, but getting no response from the dr, and then when issues forced me to miss agian I was terminatted. (this wasn't the fist tiems I had missed) The part that really angered me was that I told them that I was going to be seeing a dr the next day about the issues and if he felt that I should not continue or that it was not safe that I would let them know, but they refused to listen. The things is like I said in the letter, the kids were keeping me positive! I was happy when I was at the center with the kids.
I didn't let my feelings get in the way of my work.
I have always been a "stuffer" so it is easy for me to not allow my feelings to get out of hand when with the kids because I don't want them to know that I am upset. Only once in my life have kids ever seen me upset to the point that I couldn't "stuff-it in" that was the day after I found out that my littel brother had been arrested for METH. I was shocked, scared and upset. I really didn't know what to do so I cried, ALOT. I wasn't able to take time off because I was working at a summer camp. Luckily I was an office person, so I hid alot in my office, but when I had to go out it was hard and the kids could tell that something was wrong. That was elementary kids....I work with pre-schoolers who have a keener sence of when things are wrong, and they never seemed to catch on that something was wrong.
I guess what i am trying to say is that I know when to stay away, when I would be dangerous to the kids.

I went thru alot of denial during my intership as I was warned several times, but wasn't ready to listen/accept.

Let me know if there are any other sugestions.
Dar

I would treat this termination like any job termination...and make sure that your rebuttal is place into your file, and when, if ever, the report of your termination is released to someone, then the rebuttal will also have to be released to the same party... THAT'S the only reason I would write it.

I'm sorry someone felt they needed to give you their feelings about your mental health situation when you just wanted some help with the words you wrote.

Each step is a good step in the right direction, dar, imo. ((((hugs))))

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