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Mar 15, 2014, 03:43 PM
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I'm new to this website so please let me know if this is the wrong place to post this or I am using this forum in the wrong way.
I have been suffering from depression since high school and I am now in my late 20s. I came out as a lesbian when I went to college at age 18, and I have been in many serious relationships, but I have been dumped by everyone I have dated. My most recent relationship lasted for two years and for one year we were engaged. Being engaged made me happy and made me feel like I belonged somewhere in this world. But then three weeks before our wedding she packed up and left, saying she didn't want to get married any time soon or have kids, and she acted like she had a problem with basically everything about me. For the past six months since that happened I have gone back to being extremely depressed. I feel like I'll never amount to anything in this world and I'll never find someone who accepts me for who I am. I don't hang out with friends anymore because I feel awkward in social situations and I have absolutely NO confidence in myself. I feel like everyone is judging me and dislikes me. At work my coworkers have formed cliques and I'm not really a part of any clique. Sometimes I feel like a lot of my coworkers dislike me. They always make me do the hardest or dirtiest jobs and nobody really has my back. Also my family doesn't really understand how I'm feeling and they all have their own stuff going on so my family members don't try to make me feel loved. At this point I feel like life is worthless. I'm scared I'll end up dying alone at this rate. I also spend way too much time alone in my room thinking about where I went wrong, how I could have done things differently, how most people my age are married with kids and houses and pets. I feel so little and worthless. I have no idea how to get out of this funk and get back to being happy and doing something with my life. I want to buy a house and adopt a dog but financially I can't right now. i feel so stuck. If anyone has dealt with these issues before and over came them, please let me know how. Also I would love friends to chat with who get what I'm going through. |
 Anonymous37954, Curupira, Maskon, mulan, nakitakunai, ThisWayOut, Truthseeker14
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Mar 16, 2014, 06:18 PM
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Welcome to PC. I think you can find a home here. Looks like your post was moved or something and got lost in the shuffle. I am sorry no one responded. I think many of us can relate.
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The "paradox" is only a conflict between reality and your feeling of what reality "ought to be." -- Richard Feynman Major Depressive Disorder Anxiety Disorder with some paranoid delusions thrown in for fun. Recovering Alcoholic and Addict Possibly on low end of bi polar spectrum...trying to decide. Male, 50 Fetzima 80mg Lamictal 100mg Remeron 30mg for sleep Klonopin .5mg twice a day, cutting this back |
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Mar 16, 2014, 06:47 PM
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Welcome, and you absolutely belong here. I am sorry you are having such a hard time. Please keep sharing.
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Mar 17, 2014, 11:43 PM
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Welcome to PC! Sorry things aren't going well for you.
 
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