[Grey Matter]

Recently, I have been becoming more paranoid. I do not have BPD or psychotic depression. Lately, my intrusive thoughts (thanks to OCD and decreased mood) of turned into proper paranoia.

I am not sleeping well at night because I lay there in near complete terror. Looking towards my door, laying against the wall. My partner has been trying to help me get even some sleep, but when I do sleep I am so anxious before it that all I have is nightmares. And I wake up hyperventilating.

Is paranoia in severe depression or (what I have) major depressive disorder something that sometimes happens? I know I have been more stressed than normal. I am living between my parents home, and my apartment with my partner. My father had open heart surgery and then was in a coma, and life changed yet again. I am wondering if anyone else has gone through this?

[Altered Moment]

I have experienced paranoia while at my worst in depression. Right on the edge of psychosis. I always think the cops are to come and get me at its worse. Sometimes it is just a sense of impending doom. It's worse if I try to stay in bed to much.

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[Grey Matter]

Ah, yeah, if I stay in bed I start over thinking everything. It's probably why going to bed is so difficult. That and mix in exhaustion... probably not a good combination.

Could it be a side effect of any meds you might be taking?

[Grey Matter]

I don't think so ^^ I have been on the same medication (which is just zoloft at 150mgs once a day) for almost a year now. Part of me wishes it was my medication so I could just get it taken care of :/ this is freaking me out honestly.