I've been depressed for a very long time. For the past month or so I have not felt the sadness that goes along with depression. I of course believe that the depression is gone. But I still don't feel well. I'm still motivated to do nothing, not eating, very irritable. Asking people if there is a such thing as agitated depression. Suicidal thoughts a bit.
Has anyone ever experienced their depression changing over time? I have been working hard to rid myself of this depression so I hope it is gone and now I'm just feeling more anxiety.

I would appreciate anyone's thoughts and experiences.

[flours]

yes, i know that. mine has been changing every couple of days for a while. sometimes I was also agitated, aggressive and overexcited. I had phases when I didn't really feel bad but just wasn't interested in anything, I was basically "cool". mostly combined with being annoyed a lot by things or people. for example if some person talked to me and I was annoyed I didn't bother to listen or answer but just left. it felt automatic, like I was a robot and I was obliged to leave because the annoying talk caused it. I knew I was impolite and didn't want that but I think this is something my body did, not my personality.
funny feeling.

[Kathleen83]

Oh my yes, changes, lots of them, and frequent. Sometimes, it feels like a huge sadistic "whack a mole" game I'm stuck in, dealing with changing symptoms. Perhaps think of it this way - there's tons of different "tools" (therapy, meds, meditation, online forums etc.) that you can use to fight the depression, and varying symptoms of depression (sadness, suicidal thoughts, restlessness, lack of energy, etc.). You said you've moved past the "sadness" of your depression - yay to you, for being able to get thru that! Now, just find the "tools" you need to combat what you're feeling NOW.

I go through changes myself. There are times when I can feel depression and there's nothing to feel bad about. It does not make much sense. I can feel so-so to good during the great times. Though it seems like I have not been at that stage in quite a while.

Lately I have been feeling depressed. Last week I had a week off from work and felt depressed most of the time. By the end of last week I felt like the depression had increased. Mainly because I had a spot on my skin that would hurt when touched. I was very worried about it.

And now this week the depression has increased along with anxiety. Since last weekend, so much has happened to put me in a downward spiral. I got rear ended by another driver when I had stopped at a traffic light. When I got hit, I ended up hitting an SUV in front of me. After that I had to take my car to the nearest garage to have it fixed in an emergency because my radiator had broken. It's been very difficult to work this out with the insurance.

And that spot on my skin, I went to the doctor's and it's a minor form of skin cancer. I'm told that it's just going to be very minor work to do. Another inconvenience! Also it's been another scare.

I remain free of sadness. My doctor did increase one of my Anti depressants. To help me sleep better. Since then I have been feeling better. But I've been doing a lot as well. I did not let anxiety stop me from doing something very important the other day. I have been also giving myself little goals every day. When I achieve them I feel better.

[CosmicRose]

Sometimes I wonder if depression is a part of life. I don't think there's a human being on this earth that goes through life feeling happy all the time, feeling well-adjusted constantly, or feeling totally normal and fine. I think it all depends on how well you manage your thoughts, your feelings, and thus your actions. The rest is up for interpretation.

[waterknob1234]

Hi emwell. I am happy for you being that the "sadness" has gone. An increase in medicine may have helped. I think depression does change over time. We are always relieved thank goodness when it goes away. I am wondering if the changed mood, irritability is the result of medication? However, sometimes you have to wonder which is worse, the side effects or the depression. Just thoughts.