[inkblot]

Sometimes I think too much. When it comes to a certain subject, I am torn between wanting to give up and trying to beat the problem. To "give up" could mean to give up fighting the problem entirely and exclude it from my life, which would kill me inside. It would hurt others, too. I am afraid that if I focus too much on this problem, what could happen in my (or the others') future? Would I learn to cope, or would I really become suicidal? I have built kind of an emotional wall for some parts of this problem because the past of it has been so hard and difficult. Sometimes I feel that the "wall" should built higher and stronger to give me better protection.

[kittykat]

You have a lot of things that you are trying to find answers for. I wish I could offer some kind of insight, but I feel a good therapist would be the way to go to help sort out some of these questions (dilemas?)

Best to you

kk

Blotto sweetie! I'll bet you already know what I'll say, huh? You have a T who you trust, right? You can share with him and trust him. You can write it down, and bring it in. He will help keep you safe. You work through the tough stuff slowly. Our brains are amazing machinery. It will only let you work on as much as you can handle. It won't spontenously combust.

But, you have to be willing to be honest with your T about your emotional state of mind. You don't have to tell him every memory, or whatever. But you have to tell him if you are safe each and every time you talk. If you go through particularly difficult times, he may ask to see you more often, or may ask you to check in via phone, or whatever is his technique.

Just always be honest about your feelings, and your saftey and you can get through it as slowly as needed. No hurrys. As always....be gentle with yourself.

Emmy

"If you want others to be happy, practice compassion. If you want to be happy, practice compassion." -- The Dalai Lama

[the_link]

I am in the same boat about thinking too much. Just a little seedling of a thjough can start a chain of events that causes my mind to race. I tend to start thinking from when I wake up to when I am in bed, and even have tormented dreams sometimes. A suggestion if I may? Write everything down. Just sit down with pen, (or keyboard), in hand and empty your thoughts onto paper. No editing or spell check is allowed. A friend can be helpful too. When you are feeling tormented again, get them to listen and just spill your guts and reward you with a big hug and special reward. I am new at this and both of those methods have worked for me, as well as talking to my Dog. I know he understands. He comes over and puts his paw in my lap. Yeah, I know he is looking for a treat but atleast let me believe he knows whats going on.

Mike

So, Ink - how are you doing on this? Are you seeing you T soon? Does he know the whole scoop on the topic?

Thinking about you...Em

"If you want others to be happy, practice compassion. If you want to be happy, practice compassion." -- The Dalai Lama

[Butterfly_Faerie]

<font color=purple>That's the problem with me too, I think too much, I make it bigger then it is and then I get all wound up and upset... the only thing you can do is turn the negative into the postive ,but it take alot of practice to actually get it to work.

Hang in there.[/color]

<font color=red>~Sundance~</font color=red>

<font color=blue>"Never react emotionally to criticism. Analyze yourself to determine whether it is justified. If it is, correct yourself. Otherwise, go on about your business."</font color=blue>

<font color=black>Norman Vincent Peale</font color=black>

[the_link]

I am on Welbutrin and Ativan but only for a week. If I could stop thinking a lot of my problems would disappear or lessen greatly. From morning to bedtime, I am just processing differnet things. To use an example...Lately its been over my crumbling relationship with my girlfriend. We are spendimg more and more time apart,and I am wondering if she is seeing another guy. She is probably not, just me thinking too much. She met me when her current relationship was going down hill,and I am afraid that she might be doing the same thing to me. Little devilish seeds sneak their way into my brain, and just grow from there. Once I catch the thoughts I can stifle them but by then the damage is done. I started seeing a therapist when I first started dating her, but it might be too little too late, combined with her lack of support, (which I understand, I can only ask her to be supportive). I am very lonely, and want a girl who can let me cry on her shoulder, I want her to be that person but I am not sure. <font color=red>Is it really possible to be truly happy with another person when you are messed up like this?????????</font color=red>