Daily Check In — Ups and Downs Thread 10

Bark · May 01, 2014 at 01:47 PM

As the last thread reached 100 pages, here's the new one.

How are you feeling today?

Bark · May 01, 2014 at 01:49 PM

I had an exam that I barely studied for, didn't buy the books for it and forgot to bring the printed treadings I did have (it was open book). I hope I did okay; a 70 would be fantastic.

It's such a relief to be done with almost everything. Just one more exam I have plenty of time to study for.

I'm also seeing a therapist every week. Finally!

In general, feeling good. Bit tired, but good. Let's see how long I can keep it up.

Clara22 · May 01, 2014 at 02:23 PM

I got a nice email today, somebody is doing fine although there is struggle. It made me think I can do it, as well

tigersassy · May 01, 2014 at 02:39 PM

Feeling like crap. I want to crawl in a hole and sleep forever. I never want to wake up. I hate this

Tig

healingme4me · May 01, 2014 at 02:43 PM

If it weren't for my other two, I'd feel a lot worse about myself. A lot worse. Something I hold onto, when these rage sessions ensue. Years, gosh, first attempt with a LISW, tried rewards chart at age of 7? When pediatrician mentioned it was abnormal. Those were hours, day in day out. Better than where it was...

Drained, I'm drained. Then it's been mixed bag, when he turns to his father...coddling, enabling or well, not backed up.

He's grounded.

Looking at this school provided listing. Not sure...will be third attempt with a counselor.

Glad there is bag of sheets right there, that dent looks painted, clearly before me...

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Sadeyes3533 · May 01, 2014 at 04:37 PM

I'm on a downward spiral and there is no coming back from this one.

Bigmike727 · May 01, 2014 at 05:36 PM

Well, I have been feeling pretty good today, just got over the main hump of my exams, only a few left to go. The downside mainly is the anxiety attacks, the stress of exams has been triggering anxiety attacks, but thankfully the Rivotril helps that.

TheOriginalMe · May 01, 2014 at 07:41 PM

Had an up and down day, the up was anger and anxiety, the down was exhaustion and sleep. Normally, anger and anxiety would be something negative and at the time that's how they felt, but just having the energy to have and feel those emotions feels like a breakthrough.

I'm a touch wired right now, probably because I slept most of the evening.

seeminglyreal · May 01, 2014 at 07:50 PM

I feel horrible. I am so sad and uneasy and I don't know what to do with myself; I want to do everything and nothing at the same time. I feel like I have to pour my heart out to someone, to cry and be held and not judged while I do, instead of crying alone in the bathroom. But that'll never happen because I have no one.

mulan · May 01, 2014 at 08:18 PM

Not really good. But to tired to even talk about it.
Poor sleep...since Sunday...lots of nightmares. Wake up early today, it was an holiday, my neighbour was at home, so I had to heard hear music the all morning. Couldn't sleep anymore. Did nothing but sit on my bed with my computer and watch series episodes I had seen.
Detacheded and super lazy.

healingme4me · May 01, 2014 at 08:32 PM

it's an 8pm day, on a 9pm schedule ...so tired, and don't want another blasted Bruins update...lest it changes

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BrokenGlass · May 01, 2014 at 08:37 PM

Feeling alone and lost... Even with my supportive and loving boyfriend and friends I still feel like this

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Hellion · May 01, 2014 at 10:30 PM

I feel alright for now, earlier I got offended on another site because someone implied only a mentally ill person could murder their child, which leads to only mentally ill people commit murder...only a mentally ill person could do this vile thing. Well it was BS and I said so, then they still didn't get it so I had to re-explain that one does not have to be mentally ill to do vile things to another human.....just irks me, why are people so ignorant.

Nammu · May 01, 2014 at 11:06 PM

So very close to losing temperamentally, lost my glasses, can't find **** here. So frustrated and it's building up on the embarrassment of earlier. Using two pairs of glasses just to try and read. Feel so close to really losing it. Just breathe, telling myself that pisses me off more, I'm in a losing cycle here. Time for a time out!

tigersassy · May 02, 2014 at 07:54 AM

Feeling a bit better maybe I'm rising from the deep dark hole I've been in for over a week. I'm doubtful its my med changes, but who knows.

Tig

Bark · May 02, 2014 at 08:16 AM

Last night, I felt like my mood was slipping. Today, I feel a bit... meh. Don't feel like doing anything; still tired although I slept over 12 hours; haven't eaten a proper meal today. I have leftovers, but I have to do the dishes first. I have a class soon... I meant to do laundry and/or shower; I did neither. I'll see what clothes I have....

May 02, 2014 at 09:04 AM

Having a more down day than usual, can't exactly pinpoint why. Could be because the weekend's coming up and I detest weekends lately. Could also be because my husband has plans tonight and Saturday without me. I just feel so alone and disconnected from the world. It's only 9:04 and I have nothing to do for about 2-1/2 hours, so I'll just do my usual f***ed up internet stuff.

regretful · May 02, 2014 at 09:36 AM

So this morning after going to sleep reassuring myself that tomorrow (today) would be better, I awoke depressed...again...with little to look forward to, and fewer positive things coming into my life. Could it be that depression is the defining event of my years on earth? It certainly feels that way...

wildsassysam · May 02, 2014 at 12:10 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Sadeyes3533

I'm on a downward spiral and there is no coming back from this one.

i always think that un when im spiralling down, but im still ere to see another day, one day at a time n be nice to ya self it is allowed

wildsassysam · May 02, 2014 at 12:15 PM

WELL IM NOT REALLY ALLOWED TO PUT WOT IM FEELING TODAY DAY NO4 OF NOT EATING I JUST PLAIN N SIMPLE AINT HUNGRY

N 3 NITES OF NO SLEEP DONT DO ME NE FAVOURS EITHER, HOPE ME MEDS KNOCK ME OUT TONITE BUT NO DOUBT I WILL JUST TOSS N TURN AGAIN N WHEN I DO SLEEP IT IS DISTURBED BY NITEMARES CANT WIN

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Daily Check In — Ups and Downs Thread 10

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Bark Poohbah Member Since Oct 2008 Location: PsychCentral Posts: 1,185 16 8,255 hugs given	May 01, 2014 at 01:47 PM #1 As the last thread reached 100 pages, here's the new one. How are you feeling today?

Clara22 Magnate Member Since Apr 2013 Posts: 2,188 11 5,526 hugs given	May 01, 2014 at 02:23 PM #3 I got a nice email today, somebody is doing fine although there is struggle. It made me think I can do it, as well __________________ Clara Hope is definitely not the same thing as optimism. It is not the conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense, regardless of how it turns out. Vaclav Havel

tigersassy Poohbah Member Since Jul 2007 Location: Indiana, USA Posts: 1,256 17 600 hugs given	May 01, 2014 at 02:39 PM #4 Feeling like crap. I want to crawl in a hole and sleep forever. I never want to wake up. I hate this Tig __________________ Dream Big..... Wish Big..... Believe Big...... PTSD possible bipolar Meds: propranalol 20mg 2x's(blood pressure), lamictal 300mg, seroquel 100mg, effexor 75mg, sprycel 100mg (CML, chronic myeloid leukemia), iron supplement, multivitamin

Sadeyes3533 Junior Member Member Since Apr 2012 Posts: 18 12	May 01, 2014 at 04:37 PM #6 I'm on a downward spiral and there is no coming back from this one.

TheOriginalMe Out of Order Member Since Feb 2014 Location: England Posts: 15,859 (SuperPoster!) 10 17.5k hugs given	May 01, 2014 at 07:41 PM #8 Had an up and down day, the up was anger and anxiety, the down was exhaustion and sleep. Normally, anger and anxiety would be something negative and at the time that's how they felt, but just having the energy to have and feel those emotions feels like a breakthrough. I'm a touch wired right now, probably because I slept most of the evening. __________________

seeminglyreal Member Member Since Oct 2013 Location: Everywhere Posts: 182 11 199 hugs given	May 01, 2014 at 07:50 PM #9 I feel horrible. I am so sad and uneasy and I don't know what to do with myself; I want to do everything and nothing at the same time. I feel like I have to pour my heart out to someone, to cry and be held and not judged while I do, instead of crying alone in the bathroom. But that'll never happen because I have no one.

mulan Poohbah Member Since Mar 2013 Location: Europe Posts: 1,046 11 3,220 hugs given	May 01, 2014 at 08:18 PM #10 Not really good. But to tired to even talk about it. Poor sleep...since Sunday...lots of nightmares. Wake up early today, it was an holiday, my neighbour was at home, so I had to heard hear music the all morning. Couldn't sleep anymore. Did nothing but sit on my bed with my computer and watch series episodes I had seen. Detacheded and super lazy.

healingme4me Perpetually Pondering Community Liaison Member Since Apr 2013 Location: New England Posts: 46,298 (SuperPoster!) 11 4,168 hugs given	May 01, 2014 at 08:32 PM #11 it's an 8pm day, on a 9pm schedule ...so tired, and don't want another blasted Bruins update...lest it changes Sent from my LG-MS910 using Tapatalk 2

BrokenGlass Member Member Since Apr 2014 Posts: 63 10	May 01, 2014 at 08:37 PM #12 Feeling alone and lost... Even with my supportive and loving boyfriend and friends I still feel like this Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

Bark Poohbah Member Since Oct 2008 Location: PsychCentral Posts: 1,185 16 8,255 hugs given	May 02, 2014 at 08:16 AM #16 Last night, I felt like my mood was slipping. Today, I feel a bit... meh. Don't feel like doing anything; still tired although I slept over 12 hours; haven't eaten a proper meal today. I have leftovers, but I have to do the dishes first. I have a class soon... I meant to do laundry and/or shower; I did neither. I'll see what clothes I have....

regretful Grand Poohbah Member Since Jun 2012 Location: USA - Posts: 1,863 12 1,194 hugs given	May 02, 2014 at 09:36 AM #18 So this morning after going to sleep reassuring myself that tomorrow (today) would be better, I awoke depressed...again...with little to look forward to, and fewer positive things coming into my life. Could it be that depression is the defining event of my years on earth? It certainly feels that way...