[Blaze30]

I have read that isolating oneself from friends and love ones is natural when dealing with depression.

I have never really had many friends, but the few I had I considered close. My personality flaws I wrote off as being an introvert and that was my explanation to never really fitting in.

I am a student and two years ago I was under severe pressure (not that things have changed it's actually gotten pretty worse) and I realised I wanted to socialize less and less. I started feeling in the way when friends and I went out for a drink, because my body was there, but my mind not. I became more and more forgetful concerning conversations etc. To a point where going out became the worst thing immaginable. I did not wanted to meet new people because instantly I would forget their names, my focus was off. I started making excuses to not go out, because I knew within myself I would feel utterly alone.

My close friends started started ignoring my questions on how they were, telling me everything is fine, when it was not. Their lives were falling apart but they did not see me as the type of friend they could share that with.

So anyway now I am alone, no friends...I drown myself in my work...mind you I might be failing due to the combo-meds eating away at my brain and leaving me with some cognitive difficulty...but hey it comes with this disorder right. So I struggle working harder and not really seeing the results.

My question to you is, does it all get better with time?
Does it somehow turn aroud when you get use to the meds?
Will I someday wake up and feel I can deal with people on a personal level again?

How long will this last?

[pegasus]

Hello Blaze30, welcome to Psych Central!

I'm sorry things are so rough right now. As for your questions, everyone is different. For some people it's a combination of medication and therapy. In therapy you can learn all sorts and build up a toolbox for those times when the depression really bites. For some people, depression is a one off and for others it is something we learn to cope with. Keep sharing.