lost interest in life

I'm not sure if this belongs in the depression section, and I feel a little selfish posting this since most of the people are of much worse than I am, but here's my story. My life just seems like one big repeat day in day out. Going to school to study for a job which I already lost interest in, working a ****** job in a supermarket which I hate, exchanging fake smiles with people you don't care about you (and neither do I care about them), hanging out with fake friends just to kill time. Coming home to a depressed father who can't take care of his family (I don't blame him just so you know since a lot of people here might have the same problems as him), the only one who I ever had a litlle bit of attachment to is my younger sister. Iv'e faked emotoins so many times that I'm not even sure which are real. The only emotion which I'm sure of is that I,m really pissed of at myself for being this way. I truly desperately hope that if I am able to feel real emotoins again wil help me be able to make me regain my interest in life (but even then I'm not sure if that is how I really feel or this is just a story my ego is making up to make me seem interesting) if there is anyone that is willing to teach me about emotions both sad and happy, or with the same kind of problem please reply

Hello dutchguy123, welcome to Psych Central!

It does sound like you are depressed but I can also detect that there are some things you could start to change. For example, studying for a job that you have lost interest in, can you talk to the teachers about changing to a different subjct or see what other career choice you could do with it. Have a look at eack area of your life that you are unhappy about, are there any changes there that you could start to make?

I also suggest you look into seeking therapy or at least talk to people you trust about how you are feeling. Faking it and covering it up doesn't work.

Oddly, that's the exact kind of strange thing I'd think. Unfortunately, that's all I could relate to, ... aside from obviously being depressed and what-not. You're not alone!