I feel like a *****

I'm a bomb waiting to go off. I want to punch something, smash something, break something. I spent all day either yelling or crying. I had to ask my 4 year old to please go play in her playroom because I was gonna completely lose it. I got in an argumebt twice through texting with my boyfriend today. I can't live like this.

I feel like a failure. My dad bought my
Mini home for me to rent to own and I'm ALWAYS behind on rent. I was taken off work by my dr from oct to feb so was unable to pay rent then and now I'm again late and now with me quitting my job as of June 1 and having so many issues I'm gonna be without an income once again. I'm a single mom an I feel like I'm failing life.

I tell myself that I wish I could go back before I knew I was sick.
This is a good way to let off steam. I want to be normal again. Apparently
I had mental illness a along.
Just hang in there. Get to a doctor as soon as you can. Community Mental Health clinics offer a sliding scale for people that have trouble paying. I hope everything turns out good.

Sincerely,

Piraeus

I have an appt with a therapist at the end of the month. I just don't know how I can last that long.