[pisces22]

I haven't told my parents or siblings about what's really going with me. All they know is that I'm depressed and I have lost my appetite which part of it is true but the reason why I'm depressed is mainly because I've been thinking about dying and I get terrible panic attacks. I also have an existential crisis which makes me panic. After the panics are gone, all I'm left with is depression. The reason why I don't want to tell them the truth is because I have a twin sister and she has been having panic attacks since she was about 8 years old because she's afraid of dying. She would scream "I don't want to die" and run to my parents. She had this panic attacks for a long time. They stopped after she got really bad when we were sophomores, she was about 16 or 17, after she took some therapy. She doesn't have them when she's awake anymore but she does in her sleep and she doesn't remember them the next morning. I never panicked about death until now. I've been having panic attacks since I was 11 or 12 years old when I started questioning my existence. My younger sister is also depressed and has a lot of self esteem issues but I don't think she fears death or questions her existence. We inherited these mental problems from my dad. Some of my cousins have anxiety as well but they live across the country and we rarely talk so I don't know how bad they have it. Anyways, the last 3 days have been miserable, I didn't have time to breathe at all. Today, I've been more distracted and there have been periods during the day where I have had time to breathe and feel like myself but those thoughts keep popping up frequently. I worked from 7am-3pm and after work I watched tv and now I'm in my room so I've been distracted most of the day. I only work temporarily and today was my last day of work, I worked Friday, Monday and today. I don't know what I'm gonna do tomorrow to stay distracted. Anyways, my family has been really supportive. My mom made an appointment for me tomorrow to see a doctor and I'm a little nervous. My mom can't come because she has to work so my sister is coming with me but I feel like I'm not going to be able to tell the doctor what's really going on because I don't want to ignite my sisters fears again but I feel some comfort knowing that I'm finally getting help. I guess I'll just tell the doctor that I'm having panic attacks and depression and see where that takes me.

Also, I'm glad I joined PC. I have a blog but I feel more comfortable talking about my day and my problems here. I feel more understood and appreciated.

Thanks for listening.

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[DogTired]

Good luck with your appointment tomorrow. Seeing a new doctor can be stressful in and of itself (I'm seeing two new ones - one next week and another the following week) but I hope it's truly helpful for you, and that you have a sense of optimism afterward and maybe some ideas on how to reduce your stress and feelings of panic while you're having them.

Well wishes for your appointment. And you're always welcome here! May I lightly suggest that if you're comfortable, you ask your sister to sit out of the actual appointment? As in she go with you, but not *sit in* while you talk with the doctor? Worrying about your sister's feelings might keep you from saying all that's going on with you, and it's really important that you're able to freely say as much as you can. I experienced the same thing - not to say the exact thing will happen to you, it's better that there isn't anything holding you back. It's good for you that you're going. Good luck (:

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by pisces22

...my family has been really supportive.

That is a great help. At the very least, it doesn't make things worse. (Of course, some people are not helped by helpful people or family, but that does not seem to be your case.)

Best wishes for a truly helpful appointment.

1) WELCOME

2) You may want to write down your concerns before you see the doctor so you do not forget to discuss anything (I forget everything).

3) Best wishes to you (and your family)

[Luna Loco]

Originally Posted by pisces22

I haven't told my parents or siblings about what's really going with me. All they know is that I'm depressed and I have lost my appetite which part of it is true but the reason why I'm depressed is mainly because I've been thinking about dying and I get terrible panic attacks. I also have an existential crisis which makes me panic. After the panics are gone, all I'm left with is depression. The reason why I don't want to tell them the truth is because I have a twin sister and she has been having panic attacks since she was about 8 years old because she's afraid of dying. She would scream "I don't want to die" and run to my parents. She had this panic attacks for a long time. They stopped after she got really bad when we were sophomores, she was about 16 or 17, after she took some therapy. She doesn't have them when she's awake anymore but she does in her sleep and she doesn't remember them the next morning. I never panicked about death until now. I've been having panic attacks since I was 11 or 12 years old when I started questioning my existence. My younger sister is also depressed and has a lot of self esteem issues but I don't think she fears death or questions her existence. We inherited these mental problems from my dad. Some of my cousins have anxiety as well but they live across the country and we rarely talk so I don't know how bad they have it. Anyways, the last 3 days have been miserable, I didn't have time to breathe at all. Today, I've been more distracted and there have been periods during the day where I have had time to breathe and feel like myself but those thoughts keep popping up frequently. I worked from 7am-3pm and after work I watched tv and now I'm in my room so I've been distracted most of the day. I only work temporarily and today was my last day of work, I worked Friday, Monday and today. I don't know what I'm gonna do tomorrow to stay distracted. Anyways, my family has been really supportive. My mom made an appointment for me tomorrow to see a doctor and I'm a little nervous. My mom can't come because she has to work so my sister is coming with me but I feel like I'm not going to be able to tell the doctor what's really going on because I don't want to ignite my sisters fears again but I feel some comfort knowing that I'm finally getting help. I guess I'll just tell the doctor that I'm having panic attacks and depression and see where that takes me.

Also, I'm glad I joined PC. I have a blog but I feel more comfortable talking about my day and my problems here. I feel more understood and appreciated.

Thanks for listening.

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It's good you have family who is supportive and you're reaching out for help. I'm sure when you share with your doctor your symptoms, they will ask the right questions to get to the root of the problem so you can better manage it.

[lizzyjb]

Best wished. See a new doctor can be stressing

Hey (: I don't know where you are; where I am most of the day is gone. I came back wondering how did it go? Good, I'm sure

[pisces22]

Originally Posted by herpoorsoul

Hey (: I don't know where you are; where I am most of the day is gone. I came back wondering how did it go? Good, I'm sure

Hey. It's the afternoon where I am. Yes, everything went good. My doctor is going to find an appointment with a therapist and call me to set it up. Thanks for asking! How was your day?

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