[monkeybruv]

I'd been a bit better for a while, could get things done and wasn't wasting so much time curled up in a ball dreading things instead of doing them. Yesterday I got some bad news (don't worry, nobody is hurt, it's just a stressful situation I thought I'd already got through coming back to haunt me) and I thought I could handle it and just carry on. But maybe that's what pushed me over the edge. I did all the right things - set my alarm for therapy this morning, planned the day ahead realistically (already felt the need for a plan as I'd been lying around a lot the last few days). But I woke up feeling terrible. I put off leaving my bed until the last minute, and curled up in a ball to dread leaving the house instead of eating/washing/going to the loo. I got there just in the nick of time, and when I came back, noticing I felt pretty low, gave myself an hour on my day-plan to snuggle up in bed and do some email admin stuff and browse the internet before I had to leave the house again. But then I started feeling even worse so thought I'd give myself an hour nap before I had to do anything. When I woke up I felt refreshed but by that time I was out of control. I reset the alarm and went back to sleep for 'one more hour' just to avoid stuff and kept doing that until 7pm when my boyfriend called. I've been trying to get ready but it's now 9 and all I've done is have a snack and put the oven on for dinner. Time is going really fast, every time I look at the clock I don't know what I've been doing for so long. The worst is that I now feel even worse for having wasted one more day, which I know will make it even harder to get stuff done tomorrow. I think I'll just pretend today didn't happen and use my today's plan tomorrow? Any advice of how to think when this happens and not let it all slip?

[gayleggg]

I think that it sounds like a good idea just to use today's plan and forgive yourself for taking care of yourself today. I haven't really figured out a way to stop from slipping when things get stressful. I know if I have a plan it helps but doesn't always work perfectly somedays but it helps. Best wishes.