[TheJettSet27]

Friday went to **** really quickly. The night wasn't too bad, I had a friend come over and we saw the new X-Men movie, but the day? Bad.
Recently in Drawing class we had to do a self-portrait, including a background. For my background, I chose to do song lyrics. the entire theme of the picture was depression, so the songs reflected that. Apparently, that was a bad move.
My teacher got worried and referred me to the school psychologist.
Didn't know who it was at first - the teacher just said, "I want you to meet her, here's a pass to her room." Went to the place she was located and met her.
When I stepped into her office, I immediately knew who she was. I saw a psychology book next to her computer and the DSM V and IV stacked on a filing cabinet.
She introduced herself and began asking questions regarding the project. I opened up and talked about the depression. (I mean, there was no use lying, the project gave it away.)
And then, I accidentally said something about my struggles with self-injury and I kept trying to talk my way out of it but I ended up digging a really deep hole. The woman found out that my last injury was only two weeks ago and she called my mom to let her know.
Ended up going home early and Mom and I talked. Mom says she's hurt that I didn't tell her and I think I've lost the privilege of staying home alone all summer. According to Mom, "If I could trust that you'd call me and tell me when you were feeling like ****, I would let you be alone, but I can't trust that you would do that."
So, she doesn't trust me. To be honest, ever since I first told her I SI'd, I've always been sure she never trusted me again. And this just
gives her reason to do so.

[pegasus]

Hello there, I know you feel really bad about all this but actually this is a good thing that you saw the psychologist because now you will have support and help. I think your Mom just want s you to be safe.

sorry that this was upsetting for you....... I can complete relate to being kinda "forced" into having to talk to a shrink.

But my question for you is - why not be fully honest with the shrink? Ultimately, you have ask yourself if you want to be 'fixed' or do you want to remain in your depressed funk?

BEST wishes to you.

[gayleggg]

You have a lot of support behind you. Your mom is just doing what she thinks she needs to do to keep you safe. I'ts good that you can talk to her. Most can't talk to a family member. And let the school counselor help you as much as she can.

Sounds like you had a very good art project going. There must have been a lot of feeling in it. Keep up the artwork. It will at times keep you safe, I know from experience. Good luck to you. Remember you are worth it and you can let go of self harm.

[dandylin]

Trust, for parents, is tough. We so desperately want to keep you safe. Not exactly a disinterested party. There is nothing quite so terrifying for a parent as waiting for a police officer, or a call from hospital.

I'm glad you are home and can concentrate on getting well for the summer. I wish you peace and healing. Sounds like a cry for help was answered.