[castnostones]

I am so weak, it isnt funny. Here I am at almost 3 am posting about why I am sad when there are people dying of starvation in other countries. What do I have to be sad about? Nothing. There are others worse off than me. Yet I feel like laying down and never getting back up and I HATE myself for it. To be honest I hate alot about myself, always have. This is just one more thing to hate.
So not only am I a pathetic fat chick with no future, no skills and no sense, but now I have to add weak to that list. My own body hates me, it tries to make my life more and more painful at every turn. First a heart condition, then PCOS (which has turned me into an ugly monster since 5th grade) now I have chrones on top of it. Just another way my body is trying to tell me to give up, but I am too stupid to listen.

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, Castnostones.

Originally Posted by castnostones

What do I have to be sad about?

That's just the point with depression. It's a disorder. It messes with your moods and emotions. Depression can make one sad without the "need" for sad circumstances.

A near-lifetime of PCOS likely could crack your resistance to depression, though.

Please make yourself at home here.

[AllyIsHopeful]

I am sorry you have a plateful off health issues on top of depression. I'm in the same boat. I will tell you it is a hard journey, but it will ease up over time. My health isn't even half as bad as one year ago and I'm not sure how it happened, but it does get better! Treat yourself and your body gently- In no way is your body telling you to give up. It could be telling you what it needs and what changes are required, but definitely not to give up.

I understand your perception of others who are worse off, facing starvation, fatal diseases, lack of clean water, etc. BUT....you have to remember you are one person. You are the main character of your story and you do not deserve to suffer. Your story is unique to all others and everyone has a right to a journey and their own struggles.
My Therapist put it this way: Working on ourselves when we are in in the darkness, taking care of ourselves, facing all of our monsters, learning to cope and survive, learning to remain mindful...all of this is so necessary. If you care for yourself and work on getting back to your quality standard of living, maybe you could help those struggling for food, water, clothing, etc. We must fight our own demons and work through these problems in order to find the strength to make a difference in the world.

[Hellion]

Does other people being worse off, or people dying of starvation in the world make your issues any less severe? Probably not...so do try not to feel guilty for feeling bad on account of 'others have it worse' I mean how is that going to make things any better for you...I find thinking about that makes me feel worse since then I am depressed feeling and sad that there's people starving and who have it worse.

[chromegirl]

Hugs to you. I identify with so much of what you say...I too feel like I 'should' not be depressed. On paper my life is so rich - yet I feel awful. It makes no sense to me and causes me great guilt.

Maybe the best thing we can all do for each other right now is to prop each other up as much as possible, so that one day we really extend a hand to others.