[bmore_lyse]

Hi. I'm new here. I'm feeling quite alone in how I'm feeling. My therapist told me last time we met that I needed to choose a side of the fence -- either life or death. She was right and I've chosen life, but I feel like I'm not living it, nor do I feel like living it. I've been through so many anti-depressants, etc. and I don't know whether there are any left to help me. I've been on Fetzima now for at least 2 months and I feel nothing (btw I'm on several more medications besides Fetzima). I worry that there is nothing that will help me. I feel so depressed that all I do is go to work, watch tv and go to bed early. Does anyone else ever feel hopeless and useless? There's so much more but I don't want to overwhelm on my first post. Thanks for any feedback!

[kaliope]

you are not alone....I spent thirty years suicidal...I was lucky and found an antidepressant that worked and got me out of that deep dark hole I was in but I still found that I hadn't accepted life, I had just decided against death. I was only on antidepressants for a couple years but now I am back on them after discussing life with my pdoc. I don't know how to experience joy, I had gone back to hopelessness and feeling like things were never going to get better. just because I don't want to die anymore doesn't mean that I am gaining any pleasure out of living. I just don't know how. so no, never feel you are alone in this.

I feel alone myself. When I'm at work, I don't feel that way. I'm introverted, so it is nice to come home and just be alone for a while. Because dealing with people at work can be a chore sometimes, and sometimes it can be a joy. But there are lots of times when I have to deal with complaining, and that drains me.

I feel very alone on the weekends. It's funny how it's so different between people at work and people at where I live. I have fairly good conversations with people at work and some give me compliments or say nice things. At home, it's a different story. I feel like I'm not very well liked at where I live. There are some people that I meet at my complex that I can "chit chat" with and small talk. But that's as far as it goes. I have wanted to move out (I had a post about that on here some time ago) because of the estrangement feeling that I get at home.

[Fuzzybear]

[MIA_34]

Hi. I'm very lonely too. It can be very frustrating. I try to do the things I enjoy, and to meet some people here and there. But it is very tough. Just know that you can post here, and we are all in this together. Take care, and keep posting. We want to know how you are doing.

[Idiot17]

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