Wore Out

I had a week where everything was quiet and pleasant. The depression was even beginning to lift and I was beginning to have hope that life would improve. My husband and I went to a nice family reunion out in the country that I enjoyed in spite of my migraine headache. Then yesterday everything went to Every boss in the office tried to see just how mean, nasty, and hateful they could be, just for the joy of it I suppose. I went home exhausted and with a migraine of course. The head nurse who has worked there for over 20 years threatened to quit this morning. Interesting, we have all been seeking other jobs but can't find other jobs. It's as if other employers see where we work and will not hire us.

I had a doctor's appt. with the neurologist today, actually with his nurse practitioner. I told her I am still having migraines 3 to 4 times a week and I am having bad side effects from the Topamax. I also feel like I am losing my intelligence. I forget what I was doing 5 minutes ago and that is interfering with my work. I asked about my antidepressants and migraines. I told her I do not want to come off my Wellbutrin because it does help some with the depression and otherwise I would be suicidal. She asked in shock if I was suicidal. I told her not at this time. I did not want to even admit to having had ideation because I did not want to be sent to a hospital. I am going to visit my son for his birthday this weekend. I am rather tired for the trip but I am really looking forward to seeing him and we have everything planned out. Anyway, I got new migraine prescriptions and I hope they help some. Sorry for the long post. I live a crazy life.

Oh, Water, that was indeed a crazy day - I hope your day today was better? Usually several low, depressing, chaotic days envelop us, but then things get better. I hope that's what's happening to you. Hang in there

Hi Waterknob. I hope your time with your son is relaxing & refreshing.

I hope you enjoy your weekend and that the new prescriptions help.

Many gentle hugs to you Water....
Hope you enjoy your weekend.