[pinkvilla]

I'm battling postpartum depression and having a rough time.I haven't told my husband about depression because he thinks mental illness make people crazy and is judgemental about it. I'm doing my best with everything but with depression it is so hard,He thinks I am irresponsible now a days. Today he called me a ***** and I lost it. I just went on a full rage and said I wish he was dead. I cried a lot today.Life is so hard. I don't think he will understand ppd and will probably tell me to just have more willpower or will throw back at my face that I'm crazy at a later point.I feel so sad.The arguments are getting me back in the loop of depression.My mother isn't welcoming or else I could've gone to stay with her for a while. I don't know what to do.

[shezbut]

(((pinkvilla)))

I have struggled with PPD as well, and it is hard! Have you seen your GYN, pDoc, or regular MD for anti-depressants? Do you see a T, to talk about things ever? If not, I'd recommend trying those things asap, to start off.

Second, I'd also recommend trying to show your hub educational books or pamphlets that discuss the reality of PPD. It is very real, and it's something that we are not making up in our minds (whatever the heck that means! ). Hopefully, your hub will show that he's listening and be more emotionally supportive to you.

Third.... I wish you gentle hugs and wish you the very best! Gentle hugs to your newbie too!