Daily Check In — Ups and Downs Thread 13

Dec 23, 2014 at 03:06 PM

2011 was one of the worst years of my life.
2012 was one of the worst years of my life.
2013 was one of the worst years of my life.
But 2014 has been, by far, the worst of all of them -
so bad I'm scared of what 2015 will be.

I have to say, if next year will be anything like this year has been...
well, then I really don't know about making it to 2016...

TheOriginalMe · Dec 23, 2014 at 08:02 PM

Bah humbug. Another grey day, not properly daylight at all. Sunrise (ha what is that?) is around 8.30am and sunset is before 4pm. I did spend an hour outside with my dog, we walked in the park, it wasn't cold and the rain held off. I've had enough of christmas and it hasn't even started.

Timothybythesea · Dec 23, 2014 at 08:35 PM

My name is Tim and I am trying to make it though this sad and lonely week. Does anyone else see this time of year HELL? I'm so lonely, sad and want to die.

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herethennow · Dec 23, 2014 at 10:15 PM

fistful sleep with bad dreams, early morning awakening (then with feelings of wanting to cry) and then woke up early, dreading the day. gloom.

i dont want to meet pdoc again.

Rose76 · Dec 23, 2014 at 11:44 PM

Doing okay, but it's hard to catch up when my cold got me behind on the pre-Christmas stuff.

tigerlily84 · Dec 24, 2014 at 02:28 AM

Doesn't feel like Christmas. I have to start wrapping presents, but I have no time.

Dec 24, 2014 at 07:32 AM

I actually feel pretty good this morning for once. It's probably because it's Christmas Eve day and we're going to a family gathering at around 1 p.m., so a change from the boring routine.

I am going to go jog/walking with my dog this morning even though it's raining slightly. Will probably read and watch t.v. until we leave for the party. Trying not to feel too crappy about that fact that I will probably have to leave the party before it's really over because I'm so tired. No one's really gonna give a crap.

Dec 24, 2014 at 08:13 AM

not really sure how i'm doing today.

deffenetely not happy and excited, but not really depressed either

Angelique67 · Dec 24, 2014 at 10:49 AM

Weirdly I miss my mother. I'll call either today or tomorrow. She always has so many social engagements I can't really keep track of them. No doubt she has parties to go to today or/and tomorrow.

regretful · Dec 24, 2014 at 12:47 PM

Stuck in the office...reading about how other people are enjoying Christmas. I should be grateful, but I'm so stuck in this selfish illness of depression.

Turtlesoup · Dec 24, 2014 at 02:28 PM

It was sunny here yesterday-wow I have missed that. We went for a hike yesterday (1st in seems like forever due to this rain) & it was so nice. Felt so good to be outside-did wonders for my mood. Hope we can get out later today as well-holidays can be so difficult, hugs to all here & remember you are not alone

kultking · Dec 24, 2014 at 02:32 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by regretful

Stuck in the office...reading about how other people are enjoying Christmas. I should be grateful, but I'm so stuck in this selfish illness of depression.

I hear ya...I'm stuck at work today too

I just want to go home, lie in bed, and cry.

TheOriginalMe · Dec 24, 2014 at 03:32 PM

Cold, windy and sunny, so we managed our full quota of 7 hours of daylight today. I went for a walk in the woods, it was very muddy so I didn't stay out long.

I decorated for christmas but I don't feel anything positive, just a numb melancholy.

BubonicPlague · Dec 24, 2014 at 03:54 PM

It was so immature for me to act that way.

All because of I was influenced by him and his issues.

It transferred to me, and that was unacceptable.

Any how. I am lucky that I have a family and support that I need. He has the same things too, and he needs to realize what he has.

Don't take it for granted.

Here is my note to you (and you know who I'm talking to NICK):

There are others who are suffering way worse than what you going through. Many people would do anything just have all of these nice things that you have.

GET THAT THROUGH YOUR ****ING THICK HEAD!!!

favoritefountain2 · Dec 24, 2014 at 04:02 PM

I went to the office today, I was the ONLY one on my floor except for the security guard. I kept an eye on the servers, the files, and the transfers, but spent most of my time at the security desk (YAY Laptop!). It was fun hanging out. But I'm back home now. I think I'm going to go offline for a while.

Bark · Dec 24, 2014 at 05:15 PM

I've been feeling pretty good. I don't have the hopelessness and pain of last week. All I can be is thankful.

Wish I could share the good feelings with all of you.

Clara22 · Dec 24, 2014 at 05:19 PM

My brother told my cousins I was too ill. They came running to the hospital thinking I was going to die. I had not seen them since 2003, I think. They told me we are family, that they will come to visit me at the hospital again and that they want to help me in any way. Then my brother came to visit me and for the first time I did not have stomach ache when he is around and we have a decent conversation. After that my nieces and nephew came with stuff for an early Xmas celebration. I had distributed little presents among the nurses here so later they brought some presents for me. My attendant could bring some stuff for me to prepare drinks for the nurses ( light drinks, not too strong ), my glass had water but we cheered anyway. It was nice.

Mefisto · Dec 24, 2014 at 06:19 PM

I had serious relapse today after 2 days which gave me the illusion of getting better. Is it okay to feel need of attention and create multiple threads, here on PC? I have the impression that people here got tired of my threads and start to ignoring me.

waterknob1234 · Dec 24, 2014 at 06:22 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Clara22

My brother told my cousins I was too ill. They came running to the hospital thinking I was going to die. I had not seen them since 2003, I think. They told me we are family, that they will come to visit me at the hospital again and that they want to help me in any way. Then my brother came to visit me and for the first time I did not have stomach ache when he is around and we have a decent conversation. After that my nieces and nephew came with stuff for an early Xmas celebration. I had distributed little presents among the nurses here so later they brought some presents for me. My attendant could bring some stuff for me to prepare drinks for the nurses ( light drinks, not too strong ), my glass had water but we cheered anyway. It was nice.

It sounds as though you had some good Christmas blessings, in spite of illness. May you get well soon and have more good things happen.

waterknob1234 · Dec 24, 2014 at 06:25 PM

I thought I was having a good Christmas, then my husband talked to me like I was dirt. We had an argument and I let him have it. I told him I will not be talked to like I am trash. He apologized, but I am still upset. I will do all the family stuff and get over it eventually.

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Anonymous37914 Guest Posts: n/a	Dec 23, 2014 at 03:06 PM #21 2011 was one of the worst years of my life. 2012 was one of the worst years of my life. 2013 was one of the worst years of my life. But 2014 has been, by far, the worst of all of them - so bad I'm scared of what 2015 will be. I have to say, if next year will be anything like this year has been... well, then I really don't know about making it to 2016...

TheOriginalMe Out of Order Member Since Feb 2014 Location: England Posts: 15,862 (SuperPoster!) 10 17.6k hugs given	Dec 23, 2014 at 08:02 PM #22 Bah humbug. Another grey day, not properly daylight at all. Sunrise (ha what is that?) is around 8.30am and sunset is before 4pm. I did spend an hour outside with my dog, we walked in the park, it wasn't cold and the rain held off. I've had enough of christmas and it hasn't even started.

Timothybythesea Junior Member Member Since Dec 2014 Location: Wisconsin Posts: 16 9	Dec 23, 2014 at 08:35 PM #23 My name is Tim and I am trying to make it though this sad and lonely week. Does anyone else see this time of year HELL? I'm so lonely, sad and want to die. :

Rose76 Legendary Member Since Mar 2011 Location: USA Posts: 12,668 (SuperPoster!) 13 5,493 hugs given	Dec 23, 2014 at 11:44 PM #25 Doing okay, but it's hard to catch up when my cold got me behind on the pre-Christmas stuff.

tigerlily84 Poohbah Member Since Aug 2012 Location: Over there Posts: 1,320 12 3,546 hugs given	Dec 24, 2014 at 02:28 AM #26 Doesn't feel like Christmas. I have to start wrapping presents, but I have no time.

Anonymous32451 Guest Posts: n/a	Dec 24, 2014 at 08:13 AM #28 not really sure how i'm doing today. deffenetely not happy and excited, but not really depressed either

Angelique67 Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Oct 2014 Location: USA Posts: 22,125 (SuperPoster!) 10	Dec 24, 2014 at 10:49 AM #29 Weirdly I miss my mother. I'll call either today or tomorrow. She always has so many social engagements I can't really keep track of them. No doubt she has parties to go to today or/and tomorrow.

regretful Grand Poohbah Member Since Jun 2012 Location: USA - Posts: 1,863 12 1,194 hugs given	Dec 24, 2014 at 12:47 PM #30 Stuck in the office...reading about how other people are enjoying Christmas. I should be grateful, but I'm so stuck in this selfish illness of depression.

TheOriginalMe Out of Order Member Since Feb 2014 Location: England Posts: 15,862 (SuperPoster!) 10 17.6k hugs given	Dec 24, 2014 at 03:32 PM #33 Cold, windy and sunny, so we managed our full quota of 7 hours of daylight today. I went for a walk in the woods, it was very muddy so I didn't stay out long. I decorated for christmas but I don't feel anything positive, just a numb melancholy.

favoritefountain2 Member Member Since Nov 2014 Location: Dallas Posts: 54 10 212 hugs given	Dec 24, 2014 at 04:02 PM #35 I went to the office today, I was the ONLY one on my floor except for the security guard. I kept an eye on the servers, the files, and the transfers, but spent most of my time at the security desk (YAY Laptop!). It was fun hanging out. But I'm back home now. I think I'm going to go offline for a while.

Bark Poohbah Member Since Oct 2008 Location: PsychCentral Posts: 1,185 16 8,255 hugs given	Dec 24, 2014 at 05:15 PM #36 I've been feeling pretty good. I don't have the hopelessness and pain of last week. All I can be is thankful. Wish I could share the good feelings with all of you.

Mefisto Member Member Since Nov 2014 Posts: 94 10 38 hugs given	Dec 24, 2014 at 06:19 PM #38 I had serious relapse today after 2 days which gave me the illusion of getting better. Is it okay to feel need of attention and create multiple threads, here on PC? I have the impression that people here got tired of my threads and start to ignoring me.

waterknob1234 Grand Poohbah Member Since Feb 2014 Location: in school Posts: 1,773 10 1,308 hugs given	Dec 24, 2014 at 06:25 PM #40 I thought I was having a good Christmas, then my husband talked to me like I was dirt. We had an argument and I let him have it. I told him I will not be talked to like I am trash. He apologized, but I am still upset. I will do all the family stuff and get over it eventually.