[Arcanely]

I've noticed something as of late. On days where I don't appear as a robot, (in other words, when my depression or anxiety shows,) people are ruder to me.

Someone will give me a disapproving look, perhaps they'll roll their eyes. Recently, I was yelled at for not hearing someone speaking to me, being told that my attitude is horrible, that they don't understand people like I. The nonverbal actions are particularly rude.

The reason I ask, is that this only occurs on days where I can't bare to act "normally."

Before anyone suggests that I'm paranoid, this is not the case. If it were due to paranoia, I don't think it would be significant enough for me to hear someone yelling at me.

[TheOriginalMe]

Mostly they ignore me, I become invisible.

One day though when I was looking pretty depressed I did get some awful woman start yelling at me because her dog stole my dog's ball. I tried to be reasonable, even though I was shaking and crying, but she just kept on and on at me, saying that it was a first world problem and that I shouldn't have let it happen.

On the other hand, last week someone asked if I was unwell because I was shaky and weepy in the supermarket. So I think it can work both ways, but kindness is much, much rarer than meaness.

[IA_2809]

People are afraid of depressive traits, specially when it's not something they're accustomed to nor know how to deal with. They let their impulses to flourish instead of anything else. They remember their own suffering and assume it's comparable to yours (comparing suffering is quite the idiotic thing to do) and that you're not putting on your side for dealing with life's harshness.

I mostly gave up on explaining anything when I find myself being judged by strangers on negative ways, I can't blame a person for not knowing how to deal with a complex situation they were never been in the need to face. Though sometimes I may start playing with people when they got judgy with me when I occasionally show subtle depression traits, because I feel like having nothing to lose.

[wa(o)rrior]

Hi Friend

When we are depressed we are suffering internally. but it has its effect on the outside( e.g . a dull face). this gives the stranger a power over us. they think we can't stand up against them when we are a victim of our own suffering. it is as if they think we are cornered and they can ventilate their anger and rage upon us.

compassion is disappearing in today's society.

most of the time like i don't exist.

or the times people do notice me, it's usually to comment on how stupid i am and how i'm wasting life