[afeelingd]

I know it's too early to think I have no future right now but some days there a huge shiny light at the end of my tunnel and others the tunnel is endless and dark.

I'm typing this today because I need strength. My mom is in a verbally abusive relationship with a man and I can't even stop it. It makes me feel worthless when I hear him call her out of her name, when I see her getting disrespected and I can do NOTHING. She says she can't move out because she has no where else to go and they have a kid together and she doesn't have the money. I understand all that but still. My heart goes out to my mother. She isn't depressed but I am. I feel like I've been dealt bad cards by the game of life. I feel like I'm losing. I lack motivation to do most things and I act in school so that I don't have people constantly worrying about me. Honestly, my heart hurts, it feel pangs of pain and I can't eat. Food looks repulsive. Living with my mom and her boyfriend is taking it's toll. I don't have money or a job, so I've really got no choice.

Still. My father is alive but living with him would be more painful. He's verbally abusive himself. I don't know where anything is going and I'll just take things day by day. My heart really hurts, it's in pain, and it's wounded. Why do I have no power?

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[waterknob1234]

My heart goes out to you. It really sounds like not just you but the whole family needs therapy. It must be distressing watching your mother get pushed around and abused. Is there a way to confide to a school counselor, to get some help for your family? Love and hugs to you.

[afeelingd]

No. My family is too far gone, I'll only get in trouble if I tell someone and get authorities involved. :/ thank you for the advice though.

I'm sorry for what you (you and your mum) are going through. I'm sorry I can't be of more help.

[Fizzyo]

I really feel for you, it sounds like you feel some responsibility for helping your Mum and stopping her boyfriend's behaviour. IT IS NOT YOUR RESPONSIBILITY. I know that doesn't make it any easier to live with and its worse than horrible to hear someone you love being treated badly. She is an adult who made her choice but it is a shame her children are suffering consequences. Sorry we can only listen. Is there a help line near you where you can phone anonymously (some phone back if cost a problem) so at least you can talk to a real person on the darkest days. Sending heartfelt hugs