[jarajaramelon]

hello, i think im depressed because i cant get it out of my head that im selfish and dumb when i have to understand that im not. i keep remembering things that i couldve done wrong so i dont even care about what i do wrong in the present. is there someone that can tell me if its true or theres some disorder doing this?

[RenouncedTroglodyte]

This does sound like depression, because I have these thoughts, and I think of myself as dumb and selfish as well, and I have depression. However, we can't determine for sure, not until you get diagnosed. You should go and get the definitive answer.

[LittleEarthquakes]

Hello. What symptoms of depression do you have besides thinking you're dumb and selfish? It's impossible to tell from your first post.

[jarajaramelon]

Originally Posted by LittleEarthquakes

Hello. What symptoms of depression do you have besides thinking you're dumb and selfish? It's impossible to tell from your first post.

i keep thinking about if i did stuff wrong. like, i wrote a diary to a careprovider because i really liked him and then i think "WHAT WOULD HE THINK OF THAT, GOSH THAT'S JUST DUMB" or i stood still for like 5 minutes and people thought what the heck. and i've danced and sung in front of people and tried to be smart, but it actually sounded mean. im afraid stuff sound mean fast too.

[LittleEarthquakes]

Do you have any of these symptoms?

• Persistent sad, anxious, or "empty" mood
• Feelings of hopelessness, pessimism
• Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, helplessness
• Loss of interest or pleasure in hobbies and activities that were once enjoyed, including sex
• Decreased energy, fatigue, being "slowed down"
• Difficulty concentrating, remembering, or making decisions
• Insomnia, early-morning awakening, or oversleeping
• Appetite and/or weight loss or overeating and weight gain
• Thoughts of death or suicide; suicide attempts
• Restlessness, irritability
• Persistent physical symptoms that do not respond to treatment, such as headaches, digestive disorders, and chronic pain

[Fuzzybear]

[FMLAMAN]

On top of the Above might I add in a few more that could be indicators of Major Depression? (There are many sub-types of Major Depression, but all are equally disturbing by way of symptoms.) Please note that I cannot speak of Bi-polar symptoms only because I'm not sure what it's like to feel energized or in a manic state. Although for my Bi-polar cousins I am VERY sure Bi-polar types of Depression are equally debilitating.
· Do you have persistent and ruminating thoughts of past and future, yet an odd inability to focus on the NOW?
· Any powerful feelings of impending doom, but in your rational mind you very well know nothing from an external negative standpoint has even occurred?
· Any over thinking to the point where it's so bad your mind can not hold a productive thought in your head?
· I should also mention difficulty remembering things to a degree that is far beyond just a slip of the mind?
· Are you experiencing any feeling as if your arms, legs, and head feel oddly heavy? often times to the point where it really feels in a physical sense that someone bolted 50 pound weights to your body. (That might be less common, but I get that when it's really bad.)
· Another weird one... (less common, but one I know all too well.) Any times when your perception of sight and vision seems oddly skewed? I mean sort of like your vision is fine, but in a weird way your sight feels way off kilter? I would get this so bad sometimes that even when walking on a perfectly flat surface it sort of felt like the floor was slanted when I know damn well it is perfectly level.
· Do you have persistent bouts where it actually feels like your brain is vomiting? It's not like a purely physical pain, but rather a mental pain so severe that your brain really feels like it is vomiting.

Those above things would mean that your Depression and Anxiety are so severe that they are actually effecting your Psychomotor function. If you're not experiencing the above then just thank God you're not and get help for the more minor aspects of your Depression.

Sorry to be so descriptive, but if not then the "level of" or even if what your experiencing is Clinical Depression would be hard to know.

[jarajaramelon]

Originally Posted by FMLAMAN

On top of the Above might I add in a few more that could be indicators of Major Depression? (There are many sub-types of Major Depression, but all are equally disturbing by way of symptoms.) Please note that I cannot speak of Bi-polar symptoms only because I'm not sure what it's like to feel energized or in a manic state. Although for my Bi-polar cousins I am VERY sure Bi-polar types of Depression are equally debilitating.
· Do you have persistent and ruminating thoughts of past and future, yet an odd inability to focus on the NOW?
· Any powerful feelings of impending doom, but in your rational mind you very well know nothing from an external negative standpoint has even occurred?
· Any over thinking to the point where it's so bad your mind can not hold a productive thought in your head?
· I should also mention difficulty remembering things to a degree that is far beyond just a slip of the mind?
· Are you experiencing any feeling as if your arms, legs, and head feel oddly heavy? often times to the point where it really feels in a physical sense that someone bolted 50 pound weights to your body. (That might be less common, but I get that when it's really bad.)
· Another weird one... (less common, but one I know all too well.) Any times when your perception of sight and vision seems oddly skewed? I mean sort of like your vision is fine, but in a weird way your sight feels way off kilter? I would get this so bad sometimes that even when walking on a perfectly flat surface it sort of felt like the floor was slanted when I know damn well it is perfectly level.
· Do you have persistent bouts where it actually feels like your brain is vomiting? It's not like a purely physical pain, but rather a mental pain so severe that your brain really feels like it is vomiting.

Those above things would mean that your Depression and Anxiety are so severe that they are actually effecting your Psychomotor function. If you're not experiencing the above then just thank God you're not and get help for the more minor aspects of your Depression.

Sorry to be so descriptive, but if not then the "level of" or even if what your experiencing is Clinical Depression would be hard to know.

a day ago my feelings of emptiness were much worse than today.
but now i feel really hyper or something.
headaches, but not really a headache,
but more an anxiety headache, sort of dizzy.
and yeah, sort of like your head explodes or something. i say it alot of times "HELP, MY HEAD EXPLODES" while actually it feels like im a steam train and steam comes out of my ears.
everything feels heavy indeed, and i had this before im just afraid it gets worse. im trying to calm myself down tho, yesterday it was really heavy. i was thinking "WHERE DOES THIS COME FROM"
and i came with the most stupid conclusions in my head and they went on and on and on. and a chest pain that gets worse time to time. yesterday i suddenly walked really fast because i "NEEDED" to be happy and awesome and somehow forced myself to.

last thing, everytime i see something i think like "MAYBE I DID THAT TOO, I DON'T WANT TO SEEM LIKE THAT" and it's really tiring.
i was diagnosed with depression yes, but i didn't have depression my whole life i know. but now is a different story.

i don't want to do anything because everything feels useless for me.

idk what it is, i hope i explained it well. does this sound familiar to you?