[chuckvaga]

I've been living with depression for most of my life, over a decade at this point. I went years without seeking help but even when I found some medication that could help with my anxiety I still have to fight through depression often.

The weird thing is I don't feel down on myself anymore when the negative thoughts kick in. If anything I have become defined by my depressing thoughts and I have found a way to find comfort in that. I still occasionally have suicidal thoughts but that isn't because I'm crazy, or out of control, it's because life is really hard; hard enough as it is without having to shoulder such a burden. On top of that people are crazy as well. There must be something inherently wrong with our culture if some people view the only way out is to hurt other people via shooting, etc. There is a lot of pain and injustice here, and I don't want to be a part of it ... that has to be a form of sanity if anything.

[Fizzyo]

Hi chuck thanks for your courage in sharing. I can understand some kind of solace in this thinking, it's what you know and fits your experience. It's good you don't get down on yourself. Take heart be kind to yourself.

[Fuzzybear]