[wearymomof6]

I walked into the building today,
A woman turned, looked at me, smiled
She said my name as she said hello.
What is her name? Julie? No.
Begins with a "J" but I don't remember
I don't remember names much anymore.
So I smiled as much as I could and said hello
In return, otherwise I never would.
Then I walked into the restroom and looked.
Who is that in the mirror?
Not the person she said.
I don't know the person in the mirror.
Its not who she said.

[wearymomof6]

25 mg of benadryl
supposed to make me sleep.
300 mg of Zantac
supposed to heal the pain.
100 mg Zoloft
supposed to make a smile.
75 mg of Synthroid
supposed to help me live again.

[ensconce]

Originally Posted by wearymomof6

25 mg of benadryl
supposed to make me sleep.
300 mg of Zantac
supposed to heal the pain.
100 mg Zoloft
supposed to make a smile.
75 mg of Synthroid
supposed to help me live again.

How do you feel right now if I may ask?

[wearymomof6]

I will smile
while inside I scream.
I will say all is well
while the turmoil rages on.
I will go through the motions
while the motions wear me down.
I will keep it all hidden
while you think your happy thoughts.

[wearymomof6]

Originally Posted by ensconce

How do you feel right now if I may ask?

Not sure....reflective, perhaps? These word pictures were running through my mind. I wanted to share them...I hope its ok...

[ensconce]

Originally Posted by wearymomof6

Not sure....reflective, perhaps? These word pictures were running through my mind. I wanted to share them...I hope its ok...

Yea its okay to share these things. I get a lot of images running through my mind aswell.

[wearymomof6]

I don't know you anymore.
I lost you two, three years ago?
I see glimpses, then you disappear
I wonder if you will ever come back
or if you were ever really here.
Is this who you really are?

[wearymomof6]

Who do you think you're fooling?
Perhaps only yourself.
You never were anyone else
Other than who you are today.
Your distractions have run out
So you've no choice but
To see yourself clearly.
Perhaps for the first time.
And you are disappointed,
You actually are not
Who you thought you were.

[kray_bray_may]

Originally Posted by wearymomof6

25 mg of benadryl
supposed to make me sleep.
300 mg of Zantac
supposed to heal the pain.
100 mg Zoloft
supposed to make a smile.
75 mg of Synthroid
supposed to help me live again.

Medss to medicate the pain away. I want. Like a futuristic, sci-fi movie.