[sure]

New here
Male 26 years old.

We all have problems on here So I'll try to explain mine. to start off I have bad case of OCD with many themes and am also, as hard as it is to cope with and try to believe. am a hypochondria. In the past i raked up over 4 grand in medical debt for tests that never needed to be done but got that taken care of. I work on art projects a lot to focus my brain and it is the only real thing I care about.

I don't know. It's just all too weird. I feel as if i don't belong with this planet. or human race. We are sick creatures and do a lot of pointless tasks. I have trouble focusing on jobs because of my mind set. If I don't think I have a sickness of some sort I begin to think "the hell is all of this?"

we are animals and I hate how everyone thinks we are so different and have a high intelligence over other animals.. We're nothing more than a cancer and I feel as if I have woken up to what we are. with this knowledge how does one really go on caring about this dumb society? It's all made up. Stocks. money, jobs, debt, time, everything. uggh. anyone in the states is getting ready for the new election and I'm here not caring as usual but with a different view. Even the candidate that have some alright ideas are still nothing more to me than stupid humans trying to lead over people. leading in nature is common. lots of species have a leader, an alpha. But not to this false degree.

Our food is garbage. and the technology we are creating is far beyond our minds. it's just too much. I find any type of work that is not benefiting me a waste of time. even if I am getting money. oh yeah that too. money. what a dumb concept.

It's gonna be a day. work in 2 hours. my two weeks is in but i may not make it. might pull my famous walk out and vanish routine. I am moving away down south soon but even then. I can't do this. it's all fake. nothing means anything. the only things tat are real is what you create. it's all a mess and this is hard to organize.

anyways thanks for reading.

[gayleggg]

I'm sorry you are feeling so bad. I am glad that you have a creative outlet. If it weren't for being able to be creative I don't know what I would do. My need to create is the only thing that keeps me going some days.

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[i dont matter]

Welcome new person!

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, Sure. Do you have some sort of support system (doctors, family, etc.) where you are now? Will you be able to link to a support system down south? Will you be able to continue your creative endeavors there?

[sure]

Hey guys, thanks for the welcome. and I am not seeing anyone just battling the delusions everyday and so on. I wont have an editing computer down south for a bit but I am going to be filming a lot of animals. bob cats. snakes. alligators. all that stuff. over time my interest towards animals has grown more and I am starting to really feel like I don't fit in with many people.

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by sure

I am going to be filming a lot of animals. bob cats. snakes. alligators.

Super! So the move makes sense both for creative and mental health reasons. Your filming (and eventual editing) may prove exceptionally valuable to you in the struggle for stability and "fit."

Originally Posted by sure

over time my interest towards animals has grown more and I am starting to really feel like I don't fit in with many people.

I'm sure these sentiments resonate with many posters here.

Please check out the OCD Forum as well. All the forums cover a lot of territory, but with some searching you may find experiences and material more closely applicable to yourself.

[12ert]

I'm new too, but after reading a bit, it seems like this is an awesome community

[francisR]

hi Sure

I am sorry you have this problem of hypochondria. And that it cost you so much money. The only solution I can think of is mentioning the symptoms you think you have in the future to the family doctor and if he thinks you have no illness. Then, letting it go.
That you have projects you are very interested in is a great blessing as it gives you a reason to go on and to distract your mind from symptoms

It is a fact that sometimes we feel outsiders, mainly because having experienced depression makes us different from those that haven't. But at the end of the day. We have the same feelings. Concerns and opinions as others. Which does make us part of the human race. And so you belong here just as much as anyone else.
The truth is that we are just a different species from the animals. Neither higher nor lower. And because the animals cannot communicate with us verbally we don't know what goes on in their minds.

It is better to care about people and to try to help them because that allows us to make a difference and gives a purpose to life. The pursuit of money and material concerns to me anyway is just empty and pointless.

I do honestly believe if you have a purpose in life, such as a charitable cause, or reconnection with something that fired you up in earlier times, it makes life meaningful and satisfying. Take care. I hope and pray everything does get better for you. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis