[guiltier65]

Today is one of those dreary, depressing days, that I just hate. I feel so blah and tired that I can't focus and I just want to go home and sleep. I know that is not a good choice, but work seems impossible today. Thank goodness it's a 3 day weekend. but even that doesn't make me feel much better. I just want a day to sleep and relax with no responsibilities. I know that I have shopping with my folks tomorrow. church and lunch with them on Sunday. and Monday I have a therapy appt. at least i can sleep in on Monday. I feel like I'm whining,but i just feel wiped out and alone today. I haven't talked to my folks all week, because my dad has been such a bastard the last week or so. I will help them with their shopping tomorrow and suck it up and try to do lunch on Sunday. it will depend on Dad's attitude. I'm so tired of his anger and tirades. It is hard not to paint him as a villain. I don't know how mom puts up with it. He is so hate filled and angry. Yet, they both tell me how much they love and appreciate me. I feel so guilty, because I really feel nothing for them any more. I know they are my parents, but I just feel resentful for them being in such poor health through their own bad decisions. They both let themselves become these overweight blobs of neediness. wow, that was harsh. I'm sorry for the rant. any thoughts/ encouragement would be appreciated.

[kecanoe]

Sounds like you have a lot of stress. Certainly caring for ill parents is a huge stressor, and it is not selfish to want a day to sleep in and chill.

[Fizzyo]

I hope you got SOMEBODY time to yourself. It sounds like you are generous to your parents. I don't have answers, family suck sometimes, but I'm thinking of you and hope you get some rest tomorrow.

Be kind to yourself, you're the one best placed to do it, and beating yourself up is only doing your Dad's job for him.

Hope therapy is helpful tomorrow/today (Monday) ❤️ ❤️