[RJ42]

Why is it that some people ask how you're doing, then immediately start talking about theirself? When they do this, it feels VERY fake. I wish people like that would just leave me the hell alone. I'm tired of people like that wanting me to care about their feelings but don't give a damn about mine.

It makes me feel even more insignificant and invisible than I already feel. I dislike just being a "tool" to tangible people and nothing else. These kind of people have drained me and others like me so much, it feels like punishment for breathing.

[RJ42]

Five days with little sleep doesn't help either. But hey, who hasn't been sleep deprived at some point. Guess I should probably stop because I think I may be complaining and I don't like irritating people.

[Fuzzybear]

You aren't irritating me

I like this part of the forum as despite their pain, most people are supportive and want to help and support others

People who use others intentionally are... sub optimal

(This is not about anyone on pc)

[RJ42]

Thanks Fuzzy. I've lost hope in finding someone who sees who I am, not what I can do for them. I tears me to even smaller pieces each time I think I found someone only to realize my want to be accepted was manipulated to get something someone wanted again.

[bornunderabadsign]

It goes to show that 99% of humanity are users. And that remaining 1% are just tools for them to use.

[RJ42]

I agree Born. And it's a lonely painful existence being a usee.

[metalchick]

This society is full of people who are all about themselves...what can this person do for me...and when they are done using you they throw you out like a dirty rag and find someone else to use...

People that use you are not worth your time. I don't know your history, but it seems like you get used a lot. Seems like it's time to surround yourself with different people.

I also have a genuine question because this seems to be a common problem with you: Are you LETTING yourself be used? Please allow me to elaborate. Surely it takes two to tango: one person to use, and then the user. If you don't don't play that "usee" role, then there is nothing they can do to you. You can control who you hang out with, and whether or not you are used. Just a thought because this seems to be the theme of your posts lately.

[RJ42]

Very true metalchick.

Scared and confused....it I have not been used in a while. I'm just trying to sort through all the times it did. I don't want to be alone, but EVERY time I try or let someone in, it happens. You are right about it being two to tango though.