[jackie948]

I'm hired by a company from a year and everything gone good for first few months, but i don't know what happend to my boss after then. The biggest stress of my life is from my work and that is the reason i'm depressed daily and writing this here. i'm getting insulted daily at workplace.

From then, i'm constantly being threatened to getting fired on daily basis no matter what i do, i had tried my best at all workplaces where i got hired, but i don't know what to do about this situation.
Everyday i hear yelling from him and swearing in-front of workers and also he swore at me multiple times.
While working i tried to make situation better but i didn't even get any chance to speak anything.

And yes in last 4 or 5 months i got fired multiple times from him, yes the same company many times and rehired because they needed me.

Because of all insults, swearing and being fired again and again, now i'm not mentally capable to handle all this but i also don't want to loose the job. I would also feel like a looser if i quit a job.

The career i choose was my hobby, yes i made my hobby as my career but now i lost all interest in it, i'm feeling like a machine who works for money. The money is good that is the only reason i'm keeping this job so i'm trapped in this.

I feel like worthless and failure. Also Sometimes i feel like crying or want to die and want to cry but just can't, i don't know what to do or whom to tell.

[DesigningWoman]

This is a terrible workplace. From what you said it is ripping you apart. The only thing I can say in response is: please get out now. You are being abused by your boss. Nothing, I repeat nothing is worth you being abused.
If a friend came to you and said she was being abused by her spouse, what would you say? I bet you would tell her to get out, to run, and get to a safe environment. If she said leaving her marriage would make her a loser, you would probably do anything to convince her that she was wrong. Because she would be and you are.
Please get another job. Or just quit this one and then look.
I am very concerned from the tone of your post. I was mentally and emotionally abused for many years and physically at times. I thought I couldn't leave that toxic environment for so many reasons. Now that I am free of that I see how twisted my thinking had become. That sympathy and fear I felt for friends I couldn't apply to myself.
You could report to HR and try to fight. But with the repeated firings and rehirings your company knows what is going on.
You are worth a better life, job, and supervisor. You are better than being verbally degraded. You are not worthless or a failure. That is what abuse makes us feel.
You are Courage.
You are Brave.
You can Save Yourself.

[Ocean Swimmer]

Yes. I agree. Jackie, if you had a daughter for example and this was happening to her, what advice would you give her?

Think of it that way.

You say it was your hobby this job. What else are you trained for, what's your education?

[cryingontheinside]

This job is not healthy for you . they treat you very badly . I would deffinately look for a new job

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[jackie948]

Originally Posted by Ocean Swimmer

Yes. I agree. Jackie, if you had a daughter for example and this was happening to her, what advice would you give her?

Think of it that way.

You say it was your hobby this job. What else are you trained for, what's your education?

If i had a daughter i wouldn't let her to work there or deal with that person at any cost, sounds like i answered to my own question.

I'm a computer programmer and i wanted to do programming since i got my first computer. That was my hobby, i learned all as hobby.

For education, i'm dropped out from computer engineering but i got hired from many people just by looking at my work, i never had problems about getting job or work

[DesigningWoman]

As an experienced computer programmer, you have a lot of employment options. There are many work environments you can move in to where you will not be subjected to verbal, emotional, and mental abuse. There really is so much better out there for you.
Hug

[Fuzzybear]

I suggest looking for a new job....