A couple months ago I noticed that I didn't want to go to school and just stay home to sleep and read books. My mom noticed the change in me and said that I just wasn't motivated to do anything (I had missed a week of school already). With this in mind, I went back to school and just felt off the entire day but ignored it. A couple of weeks later, it happened again, leading to my mom to take me to a psychiatrist. After I explained how I felt, I was told that I am showing signs of depression and had anxiety. It didn't help that I already had trichotillomania (pulling out hair from the scalp/roots), severe anemia, and high stress levels. The psychiatrist told my mom this and my mom did her best to prevent the depression from worsening. It didn't help though because it just got worse due to my anemia causing me to miss two days of school. My mom doesn't really believe that I, a high schooler, can get depression because "there's nothing to be depressed over". Now, she just tells me that I have to drive to do things that I have to. I'm honestly trying my hardest to go back to school, but whenever I think about faking a smile and telling others that I was "just sick", I feel a heavy weight on my chest and I feel like crying. What's worse is that I don't feel like I can tell my close friends this mostly because I don't want them to feel sorry for me. This only adds to my stress, making me (literally) pull out my hair to bring me back to reality. What should I do? I don't feel anything anymore and could just break down at any moment.
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