[passionfruit3]

I had two pluses in the realm of coping with mental illness a couple days ago I discovered what would help me stop self harm. By posting on tap talk in self harm. Some one asked what would help me to self soothe and not want to self harm.I had right then an epiphany. I had always tried to wait out incidents of self harm and that sometimes worked but usually it didn't.so I realized while I like poetry and art it's hard to do it all night I realized the only thing that could help.talking. I thought of the warmline similar to crisis line except not crisis and you talk about anything .I thought this would be better cause I'm not. Always in crisis.
The other thing was I was at partial and are teacher was telling its not good to stuff emotions or keep them inside .she told us a story, and I'm sure we've all done this as kids,were she would take her things in her room when her mom told her to clean up and she would stuff them in her closet she thought she'd never get caught till one day her mom opened the closet and stuff came tumbling down .emotions basically come out eventually but it reminded me of a poem I'd done about a girl who kept secrets and placed them on her heart till her heart felt heavy and her head till she felt. Off balance. And tripped and all the secrets fell away and she felt better and did not complain.
Despite all this I am having a hard time from keeping making plans to hurt. Myself. I should feel happy but instead I feel a sense of unease just living and I don't know we're it comes from I don't know if partial can help. Not sure I will get the right help in this life time,

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[Fuzzybear]

[passionfruit3]

Got kicked out of partial today fml all cause I have a disability .damn it I was doing so well.

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[Fizzyo]

Originally Posted by passionfruit3

Got kicked out of partial today fml all cause I have a disability .damn it I was doing so well.

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That's wrong, what has disability got to do with it! Well done for talking, keep up the good work as best you can!

[Fuzzybear]

Grrrrrrrrrrrrr
Wtf is wrong with some of these people who look for EXCUSES NOT TO HELP. Ugh

Originally Posted by passionfruit3

Got kicked out of partial today fml all cause I have a disability .damn it I was doing so well.

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[passionfruit3]

Originally Posted by Fizzyo

That's wrong, what has disability got to do with it! Well done for talking, keep up the good work as best you can!

Shi left twice admittedly in the first week of program I wanted to leave that initial day cause legs felt weak she said we have a certain hours we need to be here and you've done. Thia twice perhaps with this disability it would be better. To find you a different program. I said I don't know then she said she needed an answer so I said okay. I know I shouldn't have and I feel at fault but she shouldn't have used my disability as an excuse to kick me out ecspecially when the first time I ran away had nothing to do with my conversion disorder

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[Fuzzybear]

Idk... Maybe it's just me but I don't find it helpful when people we've been referred to for help, add to the already punitive inner critic most of us have

(What a mess psychiatry seems to be in Peer support groups are helpful for some...)