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Hi .. im new here
Sorry if it will take so long .. ive found this site through the internet and i read many threads that are a bit close to my problem and the answer was depression so i just wanna say my issue and i desperately need a solution .

Im in the 20s ive a good job its a bit tired because of many responsabilites and everybody is counting in me in manythings .

Im also engaged to a boy friend of 2 years and we are supposed to get married by the end of this year the beg of the next one .

I used to have many friends im funny to people and crazy and sometimes people say you are strong and funny i hope i was like you .

For alot of people im successful im a manger and engaged and they think i found lots of things in early age but what i feel now is that i lost interest in everything i dunno how to be happy anymore .. i really want to be happy i wanna appreciate the things done for me but i font i tottaly lost it .

It started when i was young i was chubby i didnt have many friends and my family was a bit hard to get in discussions i dunno how to say it but they were from another world for me always made me scared and necer understood me they never gave me space and they always ruined the good days by asking me to come early or to destroy the day by yelling or anything . Also they didnt have friends and we used to travel alone it was boring .

Anyway in my highschool i changed alot i used to have lots of friends i knew everyone and i was fun to be around also in college i knew lots of people but my problem was that i never had a beat friend i didnt have that kind of friends they are all people i know but i cant tell my secrets to or call at the middle of the night .

Also i met my fiance almost 3 years ago he is a bit different he doesn't have many friends just 1 or 2 best friends he has a big family and he is very responsible and mature .
He does many nice things to me but i dont feel happy that im scared to marry him i dont wanna ruin our life .. he also get the feeling that he cant make me happy ever and its kills the both of us .. i know i love him but i just cant enjoy anything with anyone anymore .. we are doing our home and im just not interested in anything .
When he tries to surprise me or gives me a gift i give him that feeling that he wasnt perfect of this is not enough .. i dunno if i need to breakup or not it kills me that im very disappointed and feels like that months before my wedding

My days became very long boring days just look like eachothers and pass .

Sometimes i sleep by 12 hours and i feel sad almost all the time .

I cant enjoy outings or music or anything

I wanna feel happy again

[DayAtATime1]

Hi New - welcome to PC!

Have you been to a pdoc or therapist yet? On any meds?

I have a rule that I never make important decisions when I'm depressed (which is most of the time lately). That approach has saved me many times...

I hope you start feeling better soon!

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Originally Posted by DayAtATime1

Hi New - welcome to PC!

Have you been to a pdoc or therapist yet? On any meds?

I have a rule that I never make important decisions when I'm depressed (which is most of the time lately). That approach has saved me many times...

I hope you start feeling better soon!

Hey thanks for your reply

I didnt se any pdocs yet and bot on any medications i think i should start do thanks

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Any other advices or replies ?!