Struggling

I'm trying to fight this but I really am struggling. In all honesty I would like to drink myself to oblivion right now. But I managed to limit myself tonight. Thoughts of self harm and suicide are filling my mind. They are so constant. How am I meant to continuously fight them? How am I meant to win? I don't really know how I can keep on going like this. I don't feel like there is anything worth living for anymore.

I feel the same way. Sad hugs

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So sorry your struggling, hope you get some relief soon, big HUGS

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Sweet HalloweenSkye,

I'm 57 and have clung to life with both hands despite my deep desire to end the painful parts of my messed up life. I can't imagine never seeing a sunrise or sunset again. Yet the desire to escape the pain in between is still strong, after many years of not wanting to end it, I have digressed into those old feelings of just wanting to get it over with. I ignore those thoughts now, as I know that there is no coming back if I made the wrong choice. I try to concentrate on the beauty of this planet and my awe in it's creation for me to enjoy.

I say yes, you can keep on going like you feel now, and wait for the future to bring so many unexpected surprises that you cannot imagine now.

Don't cheat yourself of the possibilities, please, even if you have to suffer until they appear. You will feel proud and thankful that you fought the good fight and did not give in to your desire of your current situation. Suffering can be endured, and can be followed by positive experiences. You are more important to others than you realize.

I hope your will find that refusing to give in is a courageous choice, that often leads to positive things (eventually ). I ask you to stick with life, and not abandon the possibilities.

I am so sorry you are struggling so much now. But time passes and the possibilities of the future are unknown. Don't miss them, please.

“The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. Beautiful people do not just happen.”
― Elisabeth Kübler-Ross.

Ignore my signature, I can't seem to change it! This is the signature I wish to have. (Hope I figure out this site in order to change it! It keeps telling me I have too many images. I HAVE NO IMAGES!, ha ha.

(((hugs))) It sounds like you need help with counseling. They can help you out, perhaps put you on depression medicine if you need it, or see if there is a chemical imbalance in the brain. Whichever i hope it works out for you. Blessings and tc

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