What Is It?

What is it that keeps you fighting? Keeps you breathing another day? What keeps you from taking that one last step?

Will... refusal to concede... stubbornness... and ignorance; I don't know how to quit
And you?

That there's no point in taking that step. I believe in an afterlife and who says it isn't just as craptastic as this life? SO I see no point in trading one crappy existence for another.

Now if I could know for sure that we just blip out and there's nothing after...........then I can't think of a thing to keep me here other than spite

I guess there are multiple factors. I still want to explore the luxuries of the world through travelling, I still want to keep in touch with the paranormal, I want to explore my interests, and I want to stick with my friends (my actual family and friends? I know I'll have to and it ain't that bad... sometimes).

When it comes down to it, probably loyalty. I can't stand the fact that I'd be hurting people in ways I don't want to believe possible.
I was mostly just asking because the night I posted, I was having trouble seeing a way to keep going. There always is though. My fiance. I can't leave him.

I just can't do that to someone.

I also hold out hope that things will improve.