I am bipolar; but, it is the Depressive episodes that seem to wreak the most havoc on those around me. When I am hypo/manic I am great fun I imagine to be around. Depression however tends to drag everyone down with me. I can't help but feel they have grown tired of my Depression and wonder if they can endure the stress of yet another episode. I'm especially concerned about any damage it will do to my relationship. Can it endur the strain yet again? All those around me must have long since rolled their eyes and grown tired of my rock bottoming out.

[DayAtATime1]

I know it sounds odd, but I am jealous of your bipolar. I'm mired in chronic depression (3 years and counting for most recent bout) and would just love to have a few manic days... But I'm sure the mania has its downsides too, right?

Well, medication has managed to curb the mania - it curbs the general highs and elation too. I honestly feel this contributes to my Depression. I will suffer horrendous anxiety too but it is the Depression that is so dangerous to me. I've been hospitalized for it 3 times and had runs of ECT treatments twice. Still, it comes back each year this time. It is a battle.

[Fizzyo]