I had a pretty rough night. I'm over the worst of it

Possible trigger:

was pretty sure I was gonna do something "stupid"

but still struggling with urges. And now I don't really know what to do. I can't really guarantee my safety and I see my care coordinator in a few hours. I should tell her. But I don't wanna end up in hospital again. And she seems pretty hot on that.. But I also know saying nothing will get me nowhere... Ugh. I hate this

[josephpawlin]

First off, I want you to know that your care coordinator is there to help you. If s/he thinks it's a good idea to go to the hospital, while it might suck, it's probably the best thing.

Second off, you're more than your "stupid" urges. I don't know you, but I'd be willing to bet that there's something you used to like doing. Dig yourself out of that hole, dude, because I think you can do it.

I'm sorry you had a rough night. Really. I know it sounds like I'm being kind of harsh, and it sucks.

You should tell someone, if you don't want to tell your care coordinator about what happened. Counselor, parent, sibling, best friend... someone.

I hope it gets better.

[Demunie]

Hi Halloween,

I'm sorry you're suffering so much.
What do you have against the hospital? I know it sucks, but the hospital is there to keep you safe... Please tell someone about your "ideas".

Was there a reason for your rough night? Did anything happen?

Take care

Originally Posted by josephpawlin

First off, I want you to know that your care coordinator is there to help you. If s/he thinks it's a good idea to go to the hospital, while it might suck, it's probably the best thing.

Second off, you're more than your "stupid" urges. I don't know you, but I'd be willing to bet that there's something you used to like doing. Dig yourself out of that hole, dude, because I think you can do it.

I'm sorry you had a rough night. Really. I know it sounds like I'm being kind of harsh, and it sucks.

You should tell someone, if you don't want to tell your care coordinator about what happened. Counselor, parent, sibling, best friend... someone.

I hope it gets better.

Thanks. I talked a little about it with my care coordinator but probably played down how serious it was.. She's gonna try and sort out a med review for me, wants me to try a long list of distractions, and I'm to phone if things get worse..

Originally Posted by Demunie

Hi Halloween,

I'm sorry you're suffering so much.
What do you have against the hospital? I know it sucks, but the hospital is there to keep you safe... Please tell someone about your "ideas".

Was there a reason for your rough night? Did anything happen?

Take care

I have just been in and out of hospital for the last couple of years and it doesn't really achieve anything. Yes, it keeps me safe for that time. But when I get out I'm often in the same place I was before going in just with different meds.

There wasn't really any reason for the rough night. It's a fairly constant thing, just some nights I can handle it better than others.

I'm just fed up of feeling like this nearly all of the time. Want it to stop.

[Fuzzybear]

Hospital.... Ugh . Not for me . Thinking of you
(I don't have a "care coordinater" and don't think I want one either grrrrrr )

Sadly, I'm sure you're far from alone in having been in and out of hospital (in the uk) without it really achieving anything. That is only one of the reasons I loathe the places ...)

Not sure if you've had DBT or been offered it?

Never been offered DBT... I got offered STEPPS once which I think is kind of similar but then they said I didn't meet the criteria to join the group..

I'm guessing they don't do DBT here or I would surely have been offered it by now...

[Fuzzybear]

yes I think STEPPS is similar to DBT..

"didn't meet the criteria to join the group"

Omg. Excuse me while I put my muzzle on....

Hope you find some decent help and support, you deserve it

Originally Posted by HalloweenSkye

Never been offered DBT... I got offered STEPPS once which I think is kind of similar but then they said I didn't meet the criteria to join the group..

I'm guessing they don't do DBT here or I would surely have been offered it by now...

[Skeezyks]