[passionfruit3]

I just tried to hurt myself just now hurt myself. I am fine now told my parents they did not take me to the hospital instead they gave me this long speech about depression and how i affect everyone around me and how if i don't shape up im going to end up stuck in a mental hospital like my dads crazy brother. Like i choose to act this way on purpose. I felt so sad tonight but the tears wouldn't come

Possible trigger:

then when i tried to cut myself i only had a tack cause my parents got smart so it barely cut so naturally i turned to suicide.

I didn't know what else to do.i could have called the crisis line but to afraid of cops.

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[ThatGirl109]

Why would you be afraid of the police? And depression is FAR from insanity, so don't worry about being crazy. Is there someone you can talk to? Maybe a relative or friend? It sounds like your parents really don't understand mental illness--they usually don't. Try and get contact with some type of therapist, even if it's just the counselor at school. There's also this great thing on the suicide prevention hotline website. It's called Lifeline and you basically just chat with someone over the phone or computer about how you are feeling. They're specialists, so they help you decide what to do from there. I hope this helps!

[elevatedsoul]

its difficult for those without these issues to really understand... they dont see it as even being real, and even sometimes the ones that think they understand really dont truly understand how it feels

i might would rather be locked in a hospital than put up with people talking down to me about my issues all the time...

but thats why i stopped talking about my feelings and things a long long long long time ago... but the silent pain is terrible as well..

[passionfruit3]

I would rather go to a residential crisis home cause it's not locked i used to be like you and not talk about my feelings and now its like something inside is bursting to talk it hurts to much anyway to keep it inside and my physical body cant handle the stress (long story) im not really afraid of police i just am intimidated by them and i also feel like i am a bad person when they come like i did something wrong and i dont like that feeling i tried lifelin2 through the computer and played the waiting game never got through mqybe i should try the phine?

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[Humpty Dumpty]

Originally Posted by passionfruit3

.....i could have called the crisis line but to afraid of cops.

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I have worked at a crisis call center before. I would highly suggest calling one but using caller ID block first. You can easily Google how to use that. I think it is *67.

[tgwwtl3]

Originally Posted by passionfruit3

I would rather go to a residential crisis home cause it's not locked i used to be like you and not talk about my feelings and now its like something inside is bursting to talk it hurts to much anyway to keep it inside and my physical body cant handle the stress (long story) im not really afraid of police i just am intimidated by them and i also feel like i am a bad person when they come like i did something wrong and i dont like that feeling i tried lifelin2 through the computer and played the waiting game never got through mqybe i should try the phine?

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I know how its feels to keep things quiet and to yourself until you physically can't anymore and you have no one to turn to. I am also intimidated by police which often makes me feel worse. If you ever need/want someone to talk to I am more than willing.

[passionfruit3]

Originally Posted by Humpty Dumpty

I have worked at a crisis call center before. I would highly suggest calling one but using caller ID block first. You can easily Google how to use that. I think it is *67.

Thanks i will look into this

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[Fuzzybear]