[Deeplyhurt77]

It's been 1 week since my boyfriend broke up with me. He gave up, worried I would bring him down into the dark abyss that I have been stuck in. However, I'm confused as well since my therapist says that he has been emotionally abusive. He would tell me I look like I had kids, selfish,don't talk enough, I don't:share my emotions,care about anyone or anything,lazy,have no friends or hobbies.sleep too much as well as cry too often,live in the past etc....blah blah blah. I could go on but don't want to bore you. I have so much self hate. It made so much sense when I read self hate often surfaces when the thing you want is right in front of you.Also learn to love yourself because you can only love someone else as much as you love yourself. A strongoing marriage requires two people being authentic(I've been lying-I'm not happy). Too bad it took a break up to believe this. I'm scared to be al9ne, once my mom passes away (89-I was adopted)I have absolutely no one...no family or friends. The only thing thatgets me out of bed is caretaking of my mom. Dad died this past December. Biological mom committed suicide and I don't know my dad. I was counting on marrying my now ex boyfriend, he just bought me a diamond ring. I'm just devastated and have no hope for my future. I've about given up on medicine and therapy.

I'm so sorry you're hurting.
I can understand what it's like to be talked down to and how it can deeply affect your sense of self worth.

Be kind to yourself.
Take it day by day..sometimes hour by hour

[Fuzzybear]

[Yours_Truly]

(((((DeeplyHurt77)))))

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