So today I am having a depressed day. I am trying to make a gratitude list, and prayer, and going to this site. It's just that my kids grew up and left me, I mean left me in the dust for their better lives. I had a bad dream about my ex-husband re-proposing to me and felt feelings for him which made me very sad (because divorce is sad and it's been 10 years now...), and then on top of it my ex-boyfriend moved back to town cross country with his new wife and is posting pictures of her doing the same things he and I used to do, almost like he posted her picture on my body. I shouldn't look, but I do because it's a bad habit and I need to stop doing it!!!! I feel left out and alone. I'm young, pretty, healthy (physically at least), single, and in a good place in my life otherwise, except for the obvious depression etc. It stops me in my tracks, no matter what I learn in therapy or DBT...and no matter what I know is wrong... I went walking for a half hour and took a great bath but all I want to do is go to bed for the day and forget the world. The sun is out but it's cold (up here in the NW USA)... feeding squirrels and wildlife in the backyard has helped a little too, but I miss connection and love so much it hurts. The only thing stopping me is myself and that is really frustrating. So reaching out today to friends for hugs and positive messages of hope, because I think my hope and my life will come back to me if I just try a little harder. So love to all of you and thank you for being there for me when no one else is.

[Fuzzybear]

I wish I could take your pain away...

I don't know about divorce, but is it possible that time filters out the bad things? Longing for the good stuff?

I had a friend that, well, wasn't very good for me...But I associate her with being happy (a coincidence, timing-wise of before I became depressed). So my mourning for her is tenfold what it should be.
None of that helps, of course.

But someone or something will happen in your life again. It's just difficult to believe that, but hope and faith is what we have here, right? We have to hang on to that.

I know that the first step is to break yourself of the habit of checking out what your ex's are up to....there is a section of the forum that might help you with that. Try the rubber band trick...or distract yourself when you get the urge to do it.

Are you seeking therapy or meds? How will you help yourself?