[Sula B]

So... I have not tried any new meds but I started seeing a new psychiatrist about 3 months ago and I felt ok/comfortable talking with him. I told him things about my past that I have never divulged to anyone and it took a lot of strength and courage to do it. I was surprised at how comfortable I felt with him given I have never felt comfortable enough to talk about some of my stuff with anyone. It has made a difference - not sure quite why other than I felt validated and believed which I never thought would happen. Some of the issues I divulged I have never done so before and it felt ok which was a surprise as I expected judgement and blame.

The reason for this post is to tell people that you have to keep trying. I have tried so many meds that did not have any effect other than to make me feel dog tired ad I have seen numerous counsellors and psychologists and despite feeling ok with them never felt like being truly open. Maybe this is due to my age, maybe its just that I am desperate to feel some relief from my pain but I don't think so. I truly feel comfortable with him and I felt the need to say so to others who may be finding difficulty in relating to their therapist - please keep trying - try someone else, someone new - it really can be all about personality. I will never repeat the things I told him and in my 2nd session I told him that - he said he understood and that it was not his place to judge or to try to 'force' me to discuss; that sometimes it is jut as important to pack things up as to unpack. It is the first time I did not feel pressure to divulge - he understood and accepted my need for privacy and me telling him that I am a very private person who does not want to go over and over my experiences and issues and he accepted that. It is very important to me that I am allowed to not talk about things if I don't want to,

I just wanted everyone to hear that because if you are anything like me you will want to keep certain things to yourself and not give them oxygen and that is as valid as needing to talk.

Much love and peace to all.

[Fuzzybear]

[Fizzyo]