[Caelix3]

So there is this person who I have a crush on, I met them from an outpatient anxiety program. We became friends and started hanging out. I told her I liked her, she told me she liked me too. One time I and she went out on, what I understood was a date. I found out later on it wasn’t a date. Like a day after. I even hinted that I wanted to kiss her on the thing I thought was a date by saying:

Her: What do you want for dinner?

Me: Your lips.

She laughs.

I was attempting to flirt and she didn’t catch onto it, or she chose to ignore it.

The last time we talked, she said she wanted to start identifying as a male. I respected that and called him the pronouns he wanted and name. Whenever I would text him, He wouldn’t reply with much. So I felt like he wasn’t interested in being my friend. I would always have to text him first.

Awhile later, he told me he had a girlfriend. It felt like a slap in the face. Because he said he liked me, when I told him I liked him. So I assumed he liked me in that way. The fact that he moved on so quickly pissed me off. Then we lost contact and I deleted him from skype and my phone contacts.

I started to miss him, this year and managed to contact him on google plus. He acted all friendly and stuff like we never lost contact. It was basically like we were friends again.

Today we were talking and I asked him how he was doing. He said pretty well, gonna watch my girlfriend play Skyrim. I instantly felt like I wanted to cry.

I’m still hung up on this crush and I feel bad for saying this but I want his relationship to end. So he will get together with me. I know that is bad to say and think, but I can’t help it.

I want him all to myself and can’t stop thinking about it. I know this is unhealthy but I can’t stop. Even if I gain a crush on someone else, I still think of him.

I want to cry and just curl up into a ball and disappear.
I'll never find someone who loves me for me. I just know it.

[MickeyCheeky]

Please, don't say that.. I know this kind of stuff is hard to get through, but you can do it Try to find some distractions for yourself and not think of him for a while. It may be hard at first, but if you keep going it'll get easier

[Fizzyo]

[gayleggg]

I agree with MickeyCheeky. You have the whole world in front of you. Try to keep an open mind. I know it's hard when you have feelings for someone who doesn't reciprocate but try to leave the door open for someone else.