[BrownHat22]

Hello everyone,

I've been wrestling with some questions lately, and I just wanted to use these forums to vent a little. I've been going to therapy for almost four weeks now, and I would like to say that I have gained a new perspective on the way in which I think about myself. However, my parents do not know that I am going to therapy, and lately it's getting harder and harder to keep that information from them, as my T is recommending that I go on medication. It's coming to the point where I just have to tell them. So how? We all have our masks, our facades that we display to the outside world to show that we have everything put together. How do I tell my Mom that her exemplary young adult isn't even halfway decent? How do I tell my little brother that his role model is a fraud? How do I tell my Dad that he has to be concerned about me, and that I am far more broken than he has ever been?

I don't want to face my family with my issues, heck, I don't even want to face my issues myself. All I ever do to cope is distract myself anyway, but I guess I'm just an idiot like that. You don't have to answer any of these questions, I certainly don't expect anyone to have all the answers. I just wanted to open up a bit.

[Nammu]

I'm listening

[betweenarock]

Originally Posted by BrownHat22

Hello everyone,

I've been wrestling with some questions lately, and I just wanted to use these forums to vent a little. I've been going to therapy for almost four weeks now, and I would like to say that I have gained a new perspective on the way in which I think about myself. However, my parents do not know that I am going to therapy, and lately it's getting harder and harder to keep that information from them, as my T is recommending that I go on medication. It's coming to the point where I just have to tell them. So how? We all have our masks, our facades that we display to the outside world to show that we have everything put together. How do I tell my Mom that her exemplary young adult isn't even halfway decent? How do I tell my little brother that his role model is a fraud? How do I tell my Dad that he has to be concerned about me, and that I am far more broken than he has ever been?

I don't want to face my family with my issues, heck, I don't even want to face my issues myself. All I ever do to cope is distract myself anyway, but I guess I'm just an idiot like that. You don't have to answer any of these questions, I certainly don't expect anyone to have all the answers. I just wanted to open up a bit.

They don't need to know. IMO. You are helping yourself. Feel good about that. Keep on improving.

[*Laurie*]

In my opinion you have it backwards. You are not a fraud to be shamed, you are a strong person for reaching out and getting help to recover. If your little brother was having health issues, wouldn't you want him to get help to recover? Of course you would. Same goes for yourself.

[BrownHat22]

Originally Posted by *Laurie*

In my opinion you have it backwards. You are not a fraud to be shamed, you are a strong person for reaching out and getting help to recover. If your little brother was having health issues, wouldn't you want him to get help to recover? Of course you would. Same goes for yourself.

Thank you. I really needed to hear that.

[MickeyCheeky]

Do you think your family will judge them? If so, I'm sorry however, I'd try to tell them and see thei reaction. If they will show to be supportive, good for you! But if they don't, or they start criticizing you, then just ignore them (though I understand you'd be hurt ); you don't have to prove anything. You're strong and worthy as you are

Nobody is perfect. I know this is a cliche answer but some cliches are true. Your family already knows you are not perfect, just as you know they aren't.

I don't know what to advise in your situation but I'm sorry you are struggling. I hope you receive the help you need. Like Nammu pointed out, we are listening.