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#1
Maybe here I will post disturbing thoughts, my own and what I bump into. Start with Cradle of filth:
one half adrift in the vast abyss of despair and misery the other half mask of rich red lips whetted by the fevers of belief and greed |
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The journey has been long. My bare feet bleed. Miles of glass on a broken path. I keep walking towards the setting sun. One day I will rest.
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Poohbah
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#4
Thanks guys for the support...
witchy death & depression associations: nigredo, black, reaper, Saturn, onyx, tobacco, rum, Papa Legba, hourgass, time, harvest, abyss, structure, disorder... |
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Bigotry, hatred, ignorance, ableism, impotence of empathy. Compassion swirling like the final waters down a drain leading to an unknown darkness. Kiss the feet of your tormentors or smash their empty heads and reveal the confetti between their ears. Choices borrowed or choices made you end up in the same grave.
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Impotence of empathy - good one
I regret that any of us have had to experience this. (Especially from "professionals" who surely are supposed to possess empathy as one of. The essential competencies ) (irl) (Sorry to repeat this. But many other things are repeated in this life like the meds I am unable to tolerate but which have saved so many lives.... I'm not sure who is even writing this, maybe a ghost? Respectful regards (Ps my advice is look after your teeth ) __________________ |
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Abusers with their projectile vomiting, mothers who have a baby to "save" their dying marriage but who find babies boring, especially those babies of an "inferior" sex ... hatred, being forced to exist having been informed how "terrible" ones life is by Those Who Are All Knowing (irl)
Professionals who we trusted who are found to possess nothing but emptiness rattling around with hatred (irl) __________________ |
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thank you bearhearts
SALVATION SPELL my eyes no longer see reality just shattered worlds of tortured years gold glued into symbolic imagery my demons are too haunting for the world to see so I turn them into fantasy where I drown in a mirage living in a world so otherworldly they see only deserts but I call it home |
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#9
Rushalka demon naked
Rushalka wood nymph unwedded In river's bottom she will take you And forever there she will keep you Rushalka spirit wrathful Rushalka ghost unfaithful When you hear me when you see me Then your life has no meaning Look at me I am dancing - Hear me I am singing Come here darling - Death is what you feel ^Rotting Christ, I love listening when feeling dark or depressed without reason. I guess there are levels and classes of depression, and mixed states. Uncertainty is a *****. Panic attacks and their depressive aftertaste. Past mistakes and future fears. Trigger for starting this thread was anxiety article that redirected to a porn site. I didnt click but just the apology made me uneasy. I also guess every part of our psyche has a shadow. I like to make my shadow stylish and symbolic. Otherwise it would result in another shadow and it would create a circle of pain. Maybe. And also I like mysteries. Im not sure how Im feeling today. Hello psychcentral! |
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Saturn + Venus
Merging of these two bring up lots of questions: Is orgasm a small death? Is abortion a crime? How do I cope with depression? Why is there a dark side to everything? Can I make love with gods? Will I be punished for the things I love? How far am I willing to go for what I love? Would you die for me? ...
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#11
Desert of Seth. Black diamond eye. Black monolith. The call of Kthulu. Satan, Seth, Saturn, Shaitan... Perverted as the devil in hell (by christians). Worshiped as a god of matter (by satanists). I like neither of these extremes. Im not here to argue, you can see it as you wish. A stage of alchemical nigredo. Decomposition. Analysis. Depression. Bone structure of every system. A god of changes. Of your dark side. Finding its expression without hurting yourself or others. Maybe you are stuck in nigredo and find no meaning in life. Nobody can tell how long it will last. Hold on.
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#12
Sometimes I believe that this less material life is our truer life, and that our vain presence on the terraqueous globe is itself the secondary or merely virtual phenomenon. -Beyond the Wall of Sleep
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14 2 2017 Valentines Day
(D)eath (M)agick (T)hread DMT is your other eye, some say pineal gland. Why do I write? Im not in control of this. One eyed crow moves my bleeding hands. Another virtual world and some friend photons. Does real even exist? Suspended on a dark framework. I dissect and draw from cold astral space. Diagrams. Symbols. Connections. Constellation of the mind. She is gone. Not one earthly body did she embody to fit with me. She turned me into a mummy and gave me a comfortable tomb. And pain I could not endure. This dead end seems like the only constant. I speak for the past and now. Everything gone. All but imaginary world lines branching into different infinities. I dont want to die because I have died.
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15 2 2017 4AM
morning quote of doom: The moon is dark, and the gods dance in the night; there is terror in the sky, for upon the moon hath sunk an eclipse foretold in no books of men or of earth's gods...' There is unknown magic on Hatheg-Kla, for the screams of the frightened gods have turned to laughter, and the slopes of ice shoot up endlessly into the black heavens whither I am plunging... Hei! Hei! At last! In the dim light I behold the gods of earth!
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15 2 2017
Today is Sweetmorn, the 46th day of Chaos in the YOLD 3183 Third day since I received the collected works of master Lovecraft. The code of the shadowy ones I am determined to decipher. |
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Thanks for this thread, I'm pretty pissed off so am here
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15 2 2017 the call of kthulu
3rd message of the day. It went mad! Madness alert! Choronzon Masks. Misdirection. Dark side of collective consciousness. Kthulu Everything you hide from yourself. Azatoth Blind idiot god and sociopath. Abusing the powers of magick. Dagon Horrors of history and your past. Shub-Niggurath Satan. The bestial nature of man. Hastur Psychic vampire. Sucker of energy. Yog-Sothoth Demiurge creator god. False delusional god. > ? >+ C;horonzon + K;thulu <+ A;zatoth < D;agon <- S;hub-Niggurath - H;astur >- Y;og-Sothoth >>>[>+++++++>.++++++++++>.+++>+<<<<-] [DACKYSH KA KTULU] This code appeared to me in a vision. It is said to be the key to the eight horror. If you decipher it, you just might survive the coming of cosmic ragnarok. If you are reading this you are probably still doomed, as myself is.
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15 2 2017 BANISHING
For a moment there I really appeared to be losing my mind. My past bugs also interfered and I relived my darkest fears. The eight god revealed itself as Bel-Shamharoth, the soul eater. It told me that all these stellar gods have fractal faces and are benevolent in lots of aspects. The particular code is gibberish, a form of programming glossolalia. I feel somewhat better now. Mental banishing ritual may also be needed. Or maybe a lifetime of bug removal.
Also a pdf worth exploring. Good luck. |
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2 16 2017
math of the day: 3³ + 4³ + 5³ = 6³ = 216 (6x6x6) lyrics of the day: Midnight strikes, the candles sputter
Muttering their recking spells I snuff their tongues, my heart a-flutter These words i speak are gates to Hell |
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