[dexter]

I went from a state of not sleeping -- full of anxiety to one of not being able to get out to bed at all. I'm missing tons of work and just lying in bed all day and all night, i've even started not showering daily which even in my worst depression I used to shower and dress every day. I'm no longer acutely suicidal but I'm just so tired of fighting the deep depression which has had me disfunctional for over a year now, I've blasted through all of my savings and I can no longer pay my bills. If I could just get back to work regularly i'd be OK at least for now but I can't pry myself out of bed to even take care of myself let alone go to work. I"m just so tired of fighting this and not having suicide as a backup plan makes the days worse. In bed I self soothe and I haven't found a more positive way to accomplish that that is effective and not draining my life away.

[Hopeofreedom]

I'm sorry your feeling this way. Just want you to know I've been there! I wouldn't shower for days..

When that happens I would go on positive blogs on Tumblr or make myself some Very Strong Coffee! Which perks me up a little to Leave the house and go for a walk....

Please don't give up. 💜 Some days are better than others.
Sorry this was so long.

💙💚💛 YOU!

[Fuzzybear]

[wiretwister]

I know it sounds silly , but I found an obsession on you tube that gave me the desire to get up everyday ... sometimes the simplest things can trigger us in a good way ... don't give up ... keep looking ..