Stop

Today I want to do something that I'm not allowed to discuss on here . I hate my self my so called life and my feelings . I'm doing everything wrong . I really don't want to exist . I don't want any help . there is no help for me anyway just stupid people telling me I have to cure my self . well hopefully I won't have to worry about any of it any more

you need to get help.

if you are feeling that bad you need to go to hospital or something

being home alone is not a good idea

I wish I knew an answer... there are "self help books" , "self help forums" ... so idk why the professionals said this to you, its kinda obvious they can't do "everything" but they are supposed to do something to help

for not wanting to be here hospital is supposed to help

We care about you here

Please, be safe.. try to get help, there IS someone out there who can help you. Just keep searching and I'm sorry you're feeling so bad

Hi crying, Are you seeing a therapist, or in a support group, and are you on medication?

There are many here that care ,please let us know you are safe .

I'm sorry for worrying everyone . I am still safe but I wish I wasn't .

Take it one day at a time, even one hour at a time. Do you have someone to talk to? You can also call a hotline if you need to.

I did that just yesterday.

Hi cryingontheinside.

I know where you are my friend, and its` not a nice place! `BUT` there is help and support out there for you. `I know that now` Cause just over 5 months` ago I was in a dark dark and lonely place, standing on a chair with a rope around my neck! my mind wandered and I seen my only brother standing next to a coffin with me inside, he was crying!! My thought then was `How can I hurt someone that I dearly love`!! `The answer was `I COULD`NT` I knew then that I wanted and needed help for my own existence.
It took until the 7th of December (Psychologist meeting) for the penny to drop! `I am not on my own here`!! Today I am happy as some of my issues` have been put too bed. The other issues`, (In due course) maybe put in order and eventually put too bed!! My self worth and esteem are good at the moment. I start a new job next week, which will give me independence and a basis to fight and be happy!!
`YOU` are a person that deserves` happiness and contentment! `YOU` are the only person that will get you there! Professionals` can only give you the tools` (Guidance and support) `YOU` have to utilize them in a way that will fit your `MIND PUZZLE` in order to make peace with your inner being! `YOU` are a person in your own right, that needs` to find yourself and to move on in a positive and healthy way! `YOU` can do it, `YOU` just need to believe in yourself!!

Take care......................

Do you mean the Samaritans ? I ring them sometimes but I find they try to get me off the phone quickly . they didn't always used to be that way . I don't know what's changed .

Hi
I'm not seeing a therapist and I stopped taking my medication because it doesn't work and they won't give me anything that works because they are addictive

Thank you for your kindness and being so thoughtful . sorry for your own experience .

I don't feel ready to deal with life or my problems . and I feel guilty for not being a better or stronger person . I was suppose to visit my daughter yesterday but I felt too unwell . now I feel full of guilt and shame . I don't think I deserve to live . I'm a useless failure even unable at times to visit my own children . they deserve bettee than me . i can not even look after my self. I am pathetic .

I am glad things got better for you . i really am . i just cant see things getting better for me because i have no fight in me

There are so many, many meds to try these days, though. Can you see a different pdoc than the one who wasn't helpful? I really believe that medication - the right one - could help you.

I really believe medication could help me too if they gave me the right one . I'm just feeling hopeless because they don't want to give me anything that will work .

I know this feeling all too well and I really hope that you're able to stay safe and hopefully find a bit of relief from what you're going through very soon