[20oney]

Does anyone else have a mad night time crash where your brain just goes "nope, there's no hope, this life is a waste, everything you do is a waste, why are you still bothering, what's the point of anything anyway?"...?

I generally get the helpless hopeless all day long, but for the last couple of weeks, my night time has been hitting stronger, and harder than ever before.. What is up with this? Night time is when I am the most productive, now there is just nothing. Nothing in the morning, midday, evening or night.

I'm so damn tired of this.

[whisperingskye]

Night time has always been the worst for me. I struggle to sleep and so am left just sitting up with all these negative thoughts and there is very little to distract me. I try to reach out on here when I can. I don't necessarily talk about what's going on but just generally chatting helps somewhat. It makes me feel less alone.

I hope night times will become easier again for you soon

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by 20oney

...but for the last couple of weeks, my night time has been hitting stronger, and harder than ever before.. What is up with this? Night time is when I am the most productive...

Why now, these past couple of weeks? What's hijacking your productivity - the depression by itself or is something else going on?

Is it even possible to answer these questions?

Originally Posted by 20oney

Does anyone else have a mad night time crash where your brain just goes "nope, there's no hope, this life is a waste, everything you do is a waste, why are you still bothering, what's the point of anything anyway?"...?

I generally get the helpless hopeless all day long, but for the last couple of weeks, my night time has been hitting stronger, and harder than ever before.. What is up with this? Night time is when I am the most productive, now there is just nothing. Nothing in the morning, midday, evening or night.

I'm so damn tired of this.

Although I don't know the extent of your situation and what you've tried to soothe yourself, I empathize. Nights are hard for me too, since it's dark, quiet, and I'm by myself.

To distract myself and get away from negative thoughts, I play soothing/neutral music or listen to ASMR videos (especially the pampering role plays). Sometimes ASMR is like having a caring friend beside me, someone who can take me away from a vicious cycle of endless thoughts as I try to head towards sleep. Some of the soothing videos also put me to sleep more easily than if I were lying in the silence, listening to the jargon inside my head.

[20oney]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Why now, these past couple of weeks? What's hijacking your productivity - the depression by itself or is something else going on?

Is it even possible to answer these questions?

Yeah I don't know.. I think primarily, it's the depression kicking me. But in saying that, things are pretty stressful at the moment, so it could be that added on top of everything else.. what I don't get, it why it hits so hard of a night time :/

[20oney]

Originally Posted by psychehedone

Although I don't know the extent of your situation and what you've tried to soothe yourself, I empathize. Nights are hard for me too, since it's dark, quiet, and I'm by myself.

To distract myself and get away from negative thoughts, I play soothing/neutral music or listen to ASMR videos (especially the pampering role plays). Sometimes ASMR is like having a caring friend beside me, someone who can take me away from a vicious cycle of endless thoughts as I try to head towards sleep. Some of the soothing videos also put me to sleep more easily than if I were lying in the silence, listening to the jargon inside my head.

Why does it have to be like this!
I have a couple of mindfulness recordings by my therapist which sometimes helps me to get to sleep. Some night I simply can't bear listening to them though, so it's hit and miss? Thanks for the reply !

Originally Posted by 20oney

Why does it have to be like this!
I have a couple of mindfulness recordings by my therapist which sometimes helps me to get to sleep. Some night I simply can't bear listening to them though, so it's hit and miss? Thanks for the reply !

I empathize -- depression sucks the life out of you.

A good night's sleep really helps me. When I'm depressed, it's usually because my brain won't stop telling me frantic, negative things. Or it'll tell me repeatedly how numb it is and how pointless everything feels.

My psychiatrist also gives me a PRN dose of clonazepam because she trusts me not to abuse it. I only use it on sleepless nights when I have racing thoughts and nothing else works, and never more than twice a week. Of course, this might not help everyone. A benzodiazepine might not even be an option or appropriate.

Taking a warm shower with a lavender body wash also soothes me (others might prefer different scents). It's a pain dragging yourself to the shower when you're at a low. I also spritz some lavender essential oil on my pillows and sheets.

Sometimes I'll pace around my apartment until I'm tired (physical movement distracts me, but again, you might be way too tired for this). Or I'll journal (even if it's nonsense) until my brain has shut up I'm ready to sleep. Getting my thoughts on paper empties my brain to some degree because it gets bored of using more energy to think repetitive negative things.

All of my suggestions involve some degree of action. My therapist says that depression can't hit a moving target. But I understand what it's like to be in a pit and not have any energy to do something requiring physical activity or practice mindfulness.

[MtnTime2896]

Time of day doesn't seem to do anything for me. Not until about 6am when the sun comes up, I feel better but that goes away and back to usual around 9am.