(VENT)

Depression, struggle creating relationships.
I don't think I ever got to feel a high level of elation as feeling spiritually in tune with the world. I only know mostly darkness, rather than the light.
I could never believe a high level of light in someone can exist...
I don't think I was ever in a peak mood where I could tell and vent "This is the life..."

I have so much things to improve - diet, exercise motivation, kindness to others. But I want to be strong, too.

I accepted my depression because life isn't all spirituality. Life has darkness, too... Makes me kinda want to cry inside (can't let it out right now).

Every day has been a struggle with myself, always questioning...

I tend to feel that science ruins spirituality, as it is meant to give an answer to everything.
Spirit however, is a share of abstract thinking and perspectives. For instance, seeing a spirit as a butterfly, rather than a frontal cortex with a high activity of neurotransmitters, serotonin, dopamine, etc...