For me... depression hits... like standing in the middle of the train tracks.. and being hit by a speeding train...

with that kinda of speed and intensity... I start reviewing my life... taking stock.. of what has happened.. the good.. the bad ... the very ugly...

and when it comes down to it... I say: I've lived more in my lifetime than a 100 year old person... it's time... I want peace...I just cannot figure out why God does not agree...

freewill.. wishing for peace.. one way or another...

[finestitcher]

freewill, I have to say...as odd as this will sound...that you are fortunate that it is not a constant.

My depression is a constant. Meds relieve it, but it is never gone. If I don't take meds, which I have tried twice in the past 10 years, I cry constantly.

I fear though that the peace you seek is something that you will have to find within yourself. It is not an outward affect.

Carolyn

Thank you... the depression that hits me like a train.. is dangerous... there are times.. when I fear I will lose control..
the extreme intensity...

my DX is DID... so it is hard to explain.. unless perhaps you are DID..also...

I am so sorry that you suffer from depression... it is so very hard....I wish I could gift us all with peace..

[EJ711]

My depression seemed to escalate out of nowhere this week.

EJ

[recluse1]

(((((((freewill)))))) ((((finestitcher)))) (((ej711))) big hugs and much love to you all. depression is hard to live with and at times seemingly impossible. but we always seem to find the strength to fight another day. it's much easier with the love of freinds.

your friend
recluse1

[wickedwings]

(((((freewill)))))

for all of us...

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((freewill))))

My dear friend, I hear you and I understand. That train has no thoughts of how or when it may hit. And when it hits, it is one of great intensity and strength. But you are not alone dear. And I stand at the track, and I hit the switch that trades the track.

I understand freewill and depression is not fun. It does not care who it hits or when it hits you. It does not ask for permission nor does it have any respect of person. It just comes from nowhere at any moment or any given time of day.

Hold on my friend, together we will pull through. I know it is tough so much of the time. And when the train is not of great strength, it is still off in the distance and you can still feel its vibration on the track. But writing and reaching out is a way to stall the train, and slow it down.

Keep writng and reaching out and know that your friends here stand there ready to pick you up should you fall. Thank you for posting and giving me the chance to reach out to you. I care freewill and I love you very much.

DID is not easy to live with, and sometimes not knowing who the train is for--makes it difficult. But each time we reach out, we are taking control and helping ourself. That feeling of losing control is scary in and of itself. The train seems at times to be moving at such intensity, that you wonder if it will fly completely off the tracks.

But freewill, you have a purpose, and God is not done with you or me yet. Sometimes, when I look at my life I wonder what it is. Then, I look at all the friends and support here on PC, and I see that God has blessed me in all the trauma and turmoil, with the greatest gifts of all--all of you.

I count you as one of those great gifts, and it makes me hold on a little tighter, and reach out a little farther. I send you so much love and all the strength that I can. You mean alot to me. Hang in there dear, I am right there beside you and pulling for you. Love you.

camilionwords1truth

Thank you....for giving me such a wonderful gift.. one of love and understanding and help... when I need it the most..

I just don't have the words.. to tell you how much your post... your feelings mean to me..

I feeling so desparte.. and you comforting me... something that has so been lacking in my entire life.. being blamed constantly for feeling depressed

and I also love you so very much..

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((freewill)))

I love you too my friend. And when you love someone, the words come and fill my heart for you. You are never to blame dear. Depression respects no one and does not care when it hits. You are special and deserve all the comfort and love you can get. I know that I care so much and love you with no condition. Hang in there and know you are not alone. I am right there whenever you need a friend.

camilionwords1truth

[wickedwings]

((((more hugs and lovd))) i'm tongue-tied, for i'm going through it bad, too.

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((freewill)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))



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