I have experienced several different periods in this 6 years of depression. I used to get angry very easily if someone touched the problem or if someone offered me help and love. I didn't want to be considered fragile. Things have drastically changed now. I'm facing depression and I asked for help, now I need my girlfriend more than ever. We've been together for 3 years now so she saw a lot of me, she saw the worst me and only now I realize how much she did and she is still doing for me. Now that I'm looking depression right in the eye I need her love, her arms, I need to be loved like never before. Unfortunately I feel like she is slipping away from my arms. As I said she tolerated a lot and now I'm not healed so she still has to tolerate, but I can feel she is tired of all this. I'm tired of myself too but I can't run away from myself. I only would like to have her fully by my side while I try to become someone better. I lover her so much and I couldn't bear the thought of her leaving.