[mn136]

Today I sat in the bathroom crying and was mentally prepping myself to commit suicide. I guess as one last cry of help, I vaguely texted my best friend, even know I know she was hanging out with some other friends.

She replied with a few words of encouragement before leaving. I replied back saying that i was probably going to commit suicide and that i was really sorry. A few minutes later she said something about not committing suicide and how that would make her sad and then immediately left after sending a bunch of bitmojis.

I know i should never expect someone to take time out of their day just to talk to me, but I feel like she puts more effort into normal conversation than she did that one. What hurt was that I saw her friend posting stuff on her story (on snapchat) of them having fun and it just really stung. And if you're wondering, I didn't die, sadly

I'm not even sure if i have the right to be hurt or sad, but frankly, that's all i feel. I was at one of my lowest points today and what hurts is that she probably just thought i was having another "mood swing" or something. I'm doubting if she even takes me seriously anymore. I feel like a joke. Am i overreacting?

[Sunflower123]

No you were not overreacting. You were in crisis and it would be normal to expect your best friend to comfort and support you. Unless you text her frequently about committing suicide, she should have taken you seriously. I would be hurt and sad as well. I encourage you to talk to her about this if you're able to.

On the depression end, are you getting treatment? It sounds like you are really struggling right now. I hope you feel better soon.