[Krow]

I cannot say that I have ever been particularly sociable -- really, I was always rather aloof in comparison to many of my peers. Remaining alone never particularly bothered me, and at times, it was quite a blessing. However, whenever I do attempt to engage a given community, my ideologies, reasoning, or fundamental values typically differ drastically. Of course, I have still held my own share of friends, but I have never actually fit into any single community. This in itself is not problematic, but I never have anyone to turn to.

Whenever a problem arises, it is as though my experiences vary so greatly from others, and I am unable to derive a solution based upon their experiences. I have yet to find another person whose desires and dreams even remotely resembled my own -- I have never even met another individual who shared the same taste in music as me. Even where I have approached others in the past, they could never provide me a resolute response. Oftentimes, they will merely being a discussion, but they will cut it short immediately. And if I as much as attempt to Google a dilemma, there usually exist no results concerning the matter -- questions that no one has ever asked. It is as though there is not a single other person in which I can turn to who has genuinely shared similar experiences, ideas, or ambitions. Remaining alone is perfectly tolerable enough, but it is practically unbearable being incapable of devising a solution to a problem. I am sure that someone else does share similar experiences, but no one seems to have ever actually vocalized them before.

[Timeisnotlinear]

Hi! First of all, I would like to say that ironically, I have never seen a post that I could relate to more. That says alot considering the very basis of your post in the first place. You never flat out mentioned what types of ideals and beliefs you held but I do believe you said enough to allow me to get a common ground of the way you are feeling, and I can say there hasn't been a day in my life that I haven't felt the same way.

The avoidance has just been an issue as of late for me, and only really stemmed from a sort of frustration and exhaustion at being told that my ideas were dumb or that it was a stupid way of thinking. Not many people these days want to talk about philosophy and introspection and really the very point of life. Gossip and fashion and whatever else is the latest distraction is seemingly the only normal topic so I, too, find myself choosing to be alone almost all of the time, because even though it's quiet and sometimes lonely, I'm okay for now with just entertaining myself with my "strange outlook". *but even when I was surrounded by numerous friends and never alone, I still always felt that there wasn't a single person in the room that truly Understood the world in the way my mind did. That's no to say I was ever pretentious or held higher ideals, but that it was almost like I saw the world in a completely different way than they did. I always said that I saw the world on a different level. Not higher or lower, just... Something far from a surface level view of the way things worked. So what I'm trying to say is that although I may truly never understand the way YOU see things simply due to perception, but that there are others out there who at the very least, also feel like outsiders in the sense that they weren't as easily deceived by the illusion than most others.

Perception is a funny thing and with the added factor of semantics and basic linguistics, especially in the English language, one could almost say that NOBODY will ever understand anyone else 100%. It is so crazy to think about how two people having a conversation can talk and it will flow and they can both be so sure that they are "on the same page", yet because they each have different conditioning, backgrounds, and experiences they might honestly have completely different perceptions of what is actually being discussed. 😂

I guess what I'm trying to say, is that from reading your post, I might honestly say that there are more people out there (and possibly on this forum) that feel the same way. I know I do, and I just wanted to put it out there that if you ever want to talk or message me even just about random things or the way the world works I am always willing to find people similar to that certain type of thinking that is all too lost to most these days. No pressure or expectations in any way but I figure the reason you posted this was to maybe find someone who understands and I am just saying, Im here.

[MickeyCheeky]

Sorry. Must be really annoying to not have anyone to talk to about these struggles..

It's curious that not even on the Internet you've been able to find people with questions similar to yours.

[Sunflower123]

I hope you find a therapist or someone to talk to who "gets" you. That must feel lonely at times. Sending big hugs.

[Turtle_Rider]

I understand that, since I struggle with that too sometimes. Hope you find someone like you soon.

I've seen you many times, your posts and thoughts. For me, you seems like a philosopher type (referred to mbti). A deep one, with a deep thoughts. That's makes you look interesting to me